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Can i just say how absolutley sick i am of revising. I don't feel like i'm getting anywhere. I'm either reading stuff and it makes sense, but then i can't remember it... or it doesn't make sense and i can't remember it. ARGH! Roll on next Wednesday, I just want it over with.
The actual course is fantastic, the lectures are really interesting, i just they copuld devise a way of giving you a qualification with out having to test you ( i'm not asking much, I know)
In other news... I'm aware that post exan m there's a few things i'll need to sort out that i've been putting off... mainly finaces and health/ weight. This summer is turning out to be a very expensive one... i think i might have to look into getting some extra work of some sort to help clear some debts .
The weight issue goes on, i just need to get on with it, I'm a fat person again, i need to either to shut up moaning about it or do something about it. I suspect this might start to change the pressure is off with university.
I also need to make some decisions around work... the new role isn't working.. i can either put in for a transfer back to my old job ( apparently senior management will try and talk me out of this though as my new role is 'so exciting' and i should 'view it as a reasearch project' ( er, hello, i've already got 10 000 word one of those already this summer thanks).
Considering that i ended up crying like a 5 year old in the last meeting with them i guess i should be considering myself luck y that they kept me in the job. I cry when i get frustrated, i hate it, partly because of the shame and it stops me getting my words out.. Hmmm, so , crying at work, gained 4 stone in 4 months , decreased social life and increasing debts..... not sounding too good at the mo is it? ;o)
Aside from all this, my step sister is getting married, providing she doesn't fall pregnant again! This needs to be a great motivation for me, ... i'm 3 stone heavier than when i was fitted for the bridesmaid dress ( yes, that's right, me, dress) . I know they can make alterations but i don't think having to sew in an extra bit the size of a tent is what they'll have in mind...... Just remembered that she wanted us to wear gold shoes...... please let that have been a fashion thing that's no longer relevant.......can't i just wear my trainers? Seriously, i'll clean them and everything.....
So, to conclude, revision, birthday -lion -king -party-family -chumsy weekend, noodles with an old friend on monday ( nervous as there's 4 stone more of me since we last met), more revision, exam, dad then hurrah!!!!!!!!!!! Hello life... hello normal stuff.......goodbye reading journals on the train..... no more feeling guilty if i'm not revising at the weekend... hello routine , regular dinners... 'mormality'. 8 days and counting baby!
The actual course is fantastic, the lectures are really interesting, i just they copuld devise a way of giving you a qualification with out having to test you ( i'm not asking much, I know)
In other news... I'm aware that post exan m there's a few things i'll need to sort out that i've been putting off... mainly finaces and health/ weight. This summer is turning out to be a very expensive one... i think i might have to look into getting some extra work of some sort to help clear some debts .
The weight issue goes on, i just need to get on with it, I'm a fat person again, i need to either to shut up moaning about it or do something about it. I suspect this might start to change the pressure is off with university.
I also need to make some decisions around work... the new role isn't working.. i can either put in for a transfer back to my old job ( apparently senior management will try and talk me out of this though as my new role is 'so exciting' and i should 'view it as a reasearch project' ( er, hello, i've already got 10 000 word one of those already this summer thanks).
Considering that i ended up crying like a 5 year old in the last meeting with them i guess i should be considering myself luck y that they kept me in the job. I cry when i get frustrated, i hate it, partly because of the shame and it stops me getting my words out.. Hmmm, so , crying at work, gained 4 stone in 4 months , decreased social life and increasing debts..... not sounding too good at the mo is it? ;o)
Aside from all this, my step sister is getting married, providing she doesn't fall pregnant again! This needs to be a great motivation for me, ... i'm 3 stone heavier than when i was fitted for the bridesmaid dress ( yes, that's right, me, dress) . I know they can make alterations but i don't think having to sew in an extra bit the size of a tent is what they'll have in mind...... Just remembered that she wanted us to wear gold shoes...... please let that have been a fashion thing that's no longer relevant.......can't i just wear my trainers? Seriously, i'll clean them and everything.....
So, to conclude, revision, birthday -lion -king -party-family -chumsy weekend, noodles with an old friend on monday ( nervous as there's 4 stone more of me since we last met), more revision, exam, dad then hurrah!!!!!!!!!!! Hello life... hello normal stuff.......goodbye reading journals on the train..... no more feeling guilty if i'm not revising at the weekend... hello routine , regular dinners... 'mormality'. 8 days and counting baby!