Kitty Part 15/??
Title: Kitty
Author: StormyBear30
Author Website: http://archiveofourown.org/users/StormyBear30
Pairing: Adam/Kris
Rating: Slight R
Summary: Kris Allen has always been petrified to come out to any of the people in his life but then he meets Adam Lambert. Kris falls hard and fast for the openly gay man and finds that as much as he cares for Adam he’s not sure if he really can ever come out of the closet for him.
Author’s Note: All mistakes are mine and this is un-beta’d.
Disclaimer: I don’t know them. I have no idea of their sexual orientation. These are just stories that the muses in my head forced me to write.
Feedback: I live and breathe for it.
“Thank fuck it’s a restaurant” My Brother cried out as we walked from the parking garage towards the restaurant across the street.
“You never used to swear this much” I said, shoving my hands in my pockets because they were already sweaty and trembling on top of it.
“I’ve never had to deal with so much drama before” He grinned at me as we stopped in front of the door. “Do you have any idea about what you are going to say?”
“No…” I replied truthfully, eyeing the parking garage out of the corner of my eye and wondering if I had made a huge mistake.
“Nice try…now get in there” He hindered any plans on running as he grabbed onto my shoulder and literally shoved me in the front door. “We’re meeting some friends” He smiled at the hostess, his grip on my shoulder tightening as he forced me deeper inside. “I won’t let you fuck this up Kristopher by being a coward. You love him…so fucking prove it” He spoke against my ear, lessoning his grip but not by much as we sighted their table.
“Kristopher Allen…as I live and breathe” I heard Brad’s shrill voice as he rushed away from the table towards us. “Don’t fuck this up” He spoke under his breath as he plucked me away from Daniel and jerked me towards the table. “Look everyone…its Kris” He announced my presence in a voice that was shrill and over the top, but I didn’t care because my eyes were focused on Adam and the way he refused to even look at me.
“Hey everyone…” I waved stupidly at them, not shocked in the least by the dirty looks I was receiving from everyone at the table. “Um…I’d like to introduce you to my Brother Daniel” I went on regardless of the ugly looks, my eyes still trained on Adam. “Danny…this is Brad” I started the introductions. “That’s Tommy and his partner Sutan and their adorable daughter Jazalyn” I watched as Daniel reached over and shook all of their hands. “And this is Adam” I nodded towards the man still looking everywhere but me. “My boyfriend and that man who I love with all my heart” I knew it sounded cheesy, but if it meant that Adam would look at me, maybe even forgive me then it would be so worth it. It worked, as he turned his head and gaped at me through wide, yet beautiful blue eyes.
“It’s nice to meet you Adam. Kris has told me way too fucking much about you” Danny joked, reaching out and shaking Adam’s hand as he continued to stare at me.
“You two outside and talk while we entertain this handsome man” Brad rushed out giddily as he grabbed Adam’s hand and jerked him out of his seat, placing it clumsily into mine before shoving us both towards the exit. “So…Kris has a Brother” I heard Brad cry out, not caring in the least that I had pretty much left him to the wolves as Adam closed his hand around mine and led me outside.
“You told him?” He asked me the moment we hit the pavement outside.
I debated not telling him the truth, but I didn’t want any more lies between us. “He pretty much figured it out on his own” I replied around a painful swallow as I watched his face for any signs of anger. “I didn’t deny it” I went on weakly, closing me eyes because I knew it was just a matter of time before he bolted.
“What did you tell him?” He questioned as I opened my eyes, his face still guarded
“Everything” I replied, my heart beating rapidly in my chest.
“Everything?”
“Everything” I repeated, watching as a slow smile began to form across his beautiful face. “I had to”
“Why?” The smile started to disappear just as quickly as it had appeared.
“Because I wanted him to know who you are to me and what you mean to me and how much I love you, but at the same time I did it for me as well because it’s time to stop hiding who I am” I meant those words despite the fact that they still scared the shit out of me.
“I can’t believe you told him everything. Even the part where you thought I was a whore?” He asked with a tease to his voice and before I could respond he kissed the words right out of my mouth.
“I’m so sorry Adam” I panted against his lips when he released mine, clinging to him so tightly because I just needed to feel his body next to mine. “I’m going to make some changes…I promise” I vowed between my own kisses and I knew he had forgiven and believed me when he wrapped me up in his arms and held me just as tightly, the warmth of his smile pressed firmly against the side of my head.
“We should probably go and save your Brother from Brad” I heard him say, but I wasn’t ready to go in just yet as I leaned up and kissed him again. “Keep kissing me like that and I’m going to forget all about your Brother and take you home and fuck you senseless”
“Does that mean you’re coming home tonight?” I asked, holding my breath as I waited for him to respond.
“Truthfully Kitty…I was coming home tonight regardless if you had shown up here or not” He said words that shocked me because I figured if I hadn’t made the gesture he would have just stayed mad at me and not come back home ever.
“Re…really?” I stammered, holding my breath yet again because I did not understand the look I was seeing one his face.
“You know that I love you” He began to speak, stepping away from me, although he hadn’t released my hand. “And you piss me off so bad sometimes that I find myself thinking that maybe I should just end it, that there is so much drama when it comes to you that it’s not worth it” I wanted to cry at those words, tears actually burning my eyes as I let go of his hand and found myself standing there feeling so lost and helpless. “But then I look at you and you tell me you love me and I find myself falling for you all over again. The truth is that I can’t stay away from you. I’ve never met anyone like you before Kris and just being away from you for one night was pure fucking torture for me”
“It was for me too” I replied brokenly as he pulled me back into his arms. “I love you so much Adam” I whispered against his broad chest, closing my eyes and sending a silent prayer above that we would always be together because I honestly didn’t know if I could live my life as I had before without him in it.
“Do I even want to know?” I questioned the table after we walked in and found Sutan sitting in Daniel’s lap, Brad laughing like a hyena and Tommy pouting in his chair with a look that screamed how much he wanted to take my Brother outside and beat his ass.
“What the fuck is it about you Allen’s?” Tommy growled at me before shoving his chair back and storming out of the restaurant.
“Shit…” Sutan cried out, getting off of Daniel’s lap. “Adam watch the baby” He hollered over his shoulder as he ran after his lover.
“Why do I have a feeling you had something to do with this” Adam said to Brad as he sat down at the table, picking up the carrier with the baby in it and placing it on the table. I couldn’t keep the smile off of my face as he sang softly to her when she started to grow fussy. I allowed myself to think for a moment what it would be like if Adam and I were in a relationship like Tommy and Sutan, minus all the drama and drag queens. I could picture us living in a beautiful house with at least two children and maybe even a dog. “Penny for your thoughts” I heard Adam whisper against my ear as I opened my eyes that I hadn’t even realized were closed.
“I was just thinking about you and our future” I told him half the daydream, not wanting to jinx it or rush into anything more than we’d already had.
“I like the sound of that” He smiled at me as he leaned forward and kissed me softly.
“Yeah…” I smiled back, stealing another kiss before I turned my full attention to the baby watching us with wide eyes. “Do you think their ok?” I questioned when neither Sutan, nor Tommy had returned back to the table.
“You could say that” Daniel laughed as he pointed towards the entrance of the restaurant where they were wrapped around each other and making out in front of everyone without a care in the world.
“Do I even want to know?” I asked again, looking over at Brad before I turned my attention towards my Brother.
“I have no idea” Daniel shot his hands up in defense. “He asked me what I did for a living and when I told him he was in my lap and his hands were under my shirt feeling my abs”
“And you had nothing to do with this?” I asked Brad when he just snorted in laughter.
“No…but if you could have seen your Brother’s face” He snorted again, laughing even harder when Danny swatted at him playfully. I couldn’t help but laugh myself as I snuggled into Adam’s side because it really seemed as if he had no issues with my friends and my new life.
Up until that point I had always loved my sports car, but that night as Adam stood with me before it, I wished I had anything but a two seater because it meant that we were not going home together. We had spent many hours at the restaurant having a good time as each of them told Daniel story after story at my expense until the manager informed us that they were closing and it was time to leave. "Daniel could drive and I could sit in your lap" I whined looking up at the man I loved, hating the idea of being apart from him even though it was only for a short while. .
"As much as I love the idea of you in my in my lap Kitty, let’s not temp with you ending up in jail yet again” Adam teased as he leaned down and kissed me. "Tommy is going to drop me off and then we will talk some more about you and my lap” I couldn't help but blush at the playful grumbling I heard coming from my Brother as I kissed him quickly before shoving him away.
"So do you want to tell me about you ending up in jail?" I heard Daniel ask as I slid behind the wheel. "I don't know Kris...you come out of the closet and all of a sudden you're attacking police officers and ending up in jail" He teased after I told him my arrest story. “I actually think that you are cooler now then you were before”
"Oh shut up” I laughed along with him, unable to keep the smile off of my face the entire drive home. “Do you want a beer?” I asked as we entered my apartment thirty minutes later.
“Sure. I’ll keep you company until Adam gets here” He replied as he followed me into the kitchen, sitting down at the kitchen table as I handed him one. “So…Adam seems like a really nice guy” He said before taking a sip from his bottle.
“He is” I replied with a smile because I couldn’t help myself.
“You seem so much happier since the last time I saw you, but it makes sense now why you were so unhappy then” He went on, a look on his face that I did not like at all. “Are you planning on coming out to Mom and Dad?” He asked the million dollar question because despite the fact that I knew I would have to eventually in order to keep Adam in my life, just the idea terrified me beyond belief.
“Eventually I’m going to have to” I said, pulling several swallows from my own bottle before putting it down on the table in front of me. “It’s the one thing that will break Adam and I if I don’t”
“Is that the only reason you’d be doing it….to keep Adam in your life?” He asked, his face growing darker and unreadable.
“I guess” I shrugged. “I mean, I never had any intention of telling anyone that I was gay much less Mom and Dad. It absolutely terrifies me to even think about it, but at the same time it also pisses me off that there is a huge possibility that they won’t accept me even if I do. Then there is Adam who is so open about his sexuality and hates that he’s my secret that I’ve forced to hide back in the closet when it comes to my parents and my job, yet I can’t be mad at him because it’s not fair to ask him to do that. I just feel that I can’t win either way” I finished my beer, sliding it nosily across the table in front of me as an uneasy silence settled around us.
“I need to tell you something Kris that I don’t think you are going to like” He finally broke the silence, finishing his bottle as well before getting up and pulling two more out of the refrigerator. I didn’t say anything as I watched him drink half of the new bottle in front of him before taking a deep breath and speaking again. “I just want you to know that I really don’t have a problem with you being gay. Two years ago I probably wouldn’t have understood it but the school that I teach at has been making us teachers go to seminars on how to deal with kids who are struggling with their sexuality and then we come back and talk to our kids so they know that we are there for them if they need someone to talk to. Mom and Dad well…” He took another swig of his beer. “Mom and Dad were totally opposed to it when I brought it up. They told me that they felt as if we were encouraging these kids to be different…to be something that goes against god”
“That doesn’t actually surprise me Danny” I replied sadly. “I remember how much the church frowns upon homosexuality”
“That’s not the worst of it Kris” He said softly, his eyes looking suspiciously misty as he looked at me from across the table. “The church decided to start a conversion therapy program and Mom and Dad are two of the teachers” My breath caught in my throat while my heart felt as if it had stopped beating in my chest “I’m sorry Kris. I just figured you should know in case you decide to come home and tell them. I think they are wrong and I’ve started going to another church because it pisses me off, but they don’t agree with me and refuse to believe they are doing anything wrong. They actually think that they are doing the right thing by telling these kids that they are abominations”
“Kris…” I heard Adam call out my name as he entered our apartment.
“Thanks for telling me Danny” I rushed out, taking a few quick breaths and forcing a smile on my face when Adam entered the kitchen.
“Hey…” He greeted the two of us with a smile as he sat down next to me. “So what are we talking about?” He asked, looking between the two of us as the smile fell off of his face. “Is everything ok?” He asked, his face becoming guarded as he placed his arm around the back of my chair.
“Everything is fine” I lied with as much of a smile as I could muster considering what my Brother had just told me. I'm just really happy that your back home"
"I'm happy to be back home too" He grinned, shifting closer before he leaned over and kissed me.
"Hey I know I said I was ok with Kris being gay and all, but I'm still a man and I am not comfortable with the PDA" Daniel spoke up from across the table, causing Adam and I to laugh. We moved to the living room for the next several hours as Adam and Daniel got to know each other. I couldn't keep the smile off of my face because I was so damned happy that at least I didn't have to hide who I was from my Brother any longer, refusing to even think about what he had told me about my parents for the moment.
TBC...