Kitty Part 8/??
Title: Kitty
Author: StormyBear30
Author Website: http://archiveofourown.org/users/StormyBear30
Pairing: Adam/Kris
Rating: Slight R
Summary: Kris Allen has always been petrified to come out to any of the people in his life but then he meets Adam Lambert. Kris falls hard and fast for the openly gay man and finds that as much as he cares for Adam he’s not sure if he really can ever come out of the closet for him.
Author’s Note: All mistakes are mine and this is un-beta’d.
Disclaimer: I don’t know them. I have no idea of their sexual orientation. These are just stories that the muses in my head forced me to write.
Feedback: I live and breathe for it.
“It’s ok” He smiled, curling his body closer to mine. “It was so fucked up at the beginning” He sighed. “I’ve been friends with Sutan for a very long time. He’s a make up artist and I hired him to help me do some head shots for my auditions after I graduated from high school and we just hit it off. He was really a god send because I was freshly new to the gay scene and I had no idea what the fuck I was doing. He had been out for a long time and he took me under his wing and helped me out”
“Sounds like someone else I know” I nudged him with my shoulder.
“Yeah…well truth be told before your friends had even talked to me about your problem I had already spotted you from across the room” Adam grinned against my neck. “It wouldn’t have mattered either way because I was determined that I was going to fuck you anyway”
“Oh really?” I giggled, my breath hitching in my throat as he nipped at my neck.
“Yes…but we can talk about that later” He kissed the spot he’d been tugging at before pulling back. “I met Tommy when he auditioned for a friend’s band. He had this funky blonde and black skunk thing going on with his hair, but I liked him from the moment I met him. He claimed to be straight but he didn’t seem to care about all the gayness going on around him” I heard Adam chuckle before he got a serious look on his face again. “About a couple of months after I met Tommy I invited him to one of Raja’s drag shows. We were more then halfway drunk by the time we got there. I introduced them to each other and you could see this instantaneous spark between them. It was just so fucked up though because Tommy thought that Raja was a real woman and Raja thought Tommy knew he was in drag and I was so fucking clueless thinking that maybe Tommy wasn’t as straight as he said he was”
“Wow” Was all I could say because I could see how confusing that entire situation could be.
“Yeah…” I went to the bar to get some drinks and when I came back the two of them were all over each other on the dance floor. I still didn’t think anything of it when they disappeared because I was so shitfaced and had found my own little twink for the night” He continued with his story while I tried not to be jealous of some guy he had picked up before he had even met me. “They ended up at Tommy’s place and well do I really have to tell you what happened next?” He asked, pointing at his crotch as he looked over at me.
“Not really” I answered, already figuring out that Tommy had found out Raja was really a man when he had felt her up and found a surprise underneath.
“Tommy just flipped out and kicked Raja out of his apartment and then rushed over to my place, beating on the door loud enough to wake the dead. He was so wasted and so angry, ready to beat the shit out of me for setting him up. I tried to explain but he didn’t want to hear, constantly trying to hit me but falling to the floor instead. Finally, he just passed out. When he woke up the next morning he called me ever name in the book, accused me of setting him up and vowing to never speak to me again. If that wasn’t bad enough I had Raja blaming me for trying to set her up with a straight boy and not telling him about her. I just introduced them, but I got blamed for the whole thing and then neither of them would speak to me for months”
“What happened after that?” I asked, already knowing that the story had a happy ending, but dying to know how they got to that point.
“It was the stupidest fucking thing ever” The lead singer of Tommy’s band decided to glam up their look and he hired Sutan to be their make up artist for the small tour they were about to go on. Tommy had no idea what Sutan looked like without his makeup on and yet he knew it was Raja despite it. He felt bad for what he had done to Raja and wanted to talk about it, wanted to make things right because that’s the type of guy Tommy is. Sutan refused to talk to him and he even broke Tommy’s nose when he got pissed off and threw his make up kit at him. It took Tommy bloody and in the emergency room before he would even consider listening to what he had to say”
“And they lived happily ever after” I smiled, cooing at the baby I still held in my arms.
“Not even close”
"Then how did they end up together?" I was confused.
"Raja got bashed" He could only nod at me when I looked at him with wide eyes. "She was attacked one night after a show. The fuckers really fucked her up too. They attacked her from behind, so she literally didn't see it coming" I could hear the pain in Adam's voice and it broke my heart, yet I was pissed off that there were people in the world who would hurt another human being like that. Yet under all that anger and pain, I felt overwhelming fear because I knew that it was a small part of the reason I was petrified to come out.
"I'm sorry that happened to her. It had to be so hard to deal with"
“It was, but it was ten times worse for Tommy. I thought he was going to lose his mind when I told him what happened. When we got to the hospital they wouldn’t tell us anything because we weren’t family and he just lost it even more. He was such a mess, screaming and yelling and threatening just about every staff member he saw. They actually threatened to escort him out of the building if he didn’t control himself. We all waited in the lobby for hours and hours before Sutan’s parents came out and told us what was going on with him. He was in intensive care for four days before they moved him to his own room. They only allowed a few of us in at a time and Tommy let it be known in no uncertain terms that he was going to be one of the first ones to see him. Sutan wanted nothing to do with him at first, but Tommy’s nothing if not stubborn and eventually Sutan just gave up and accepted the fact that he wasn’t going to leave. Tommy never left his side the entire time he was in the hospital, he even moved into his apartment after he was released and we thought everything was going to be just fine, but then the shit hit the fan once again shortly thereafter” Adam sighed as if the story were taking a toll on him. “Let me put her to bed” He nodded towards the sleeping baby still in my arms.
“Ok” I smiled as I handed her to him, closing my eyes and enjoying the warmth of Adam’s lips as he kissed me softly.
“Are you ok?” I heard him ask a few moments later, sitting down beside me with a look of concern on his face. I didn’t know why he was concerned about me when it should have been me concerned about him.
“It’s just so hard to comprehend that there are such hateful people in the world you know” I shrugged, feeling a lot better when he wrapped his arm around my shoulder and tugged me against his body. We sat in silence for a few minutes, each of us seeming to be lost in our own thoughts. “Adam…you don’t have to finish the story if it’s too painful to talk about” I broke that silence, looking up at him.
“It’s not that I don’t want to talk about it but it just brings back so many bad memories” He sighed and I waited to see if he was going to continue or not. “Like I said everything seemed to be going just fine. Tommy seemed to have finally gotten over the fact that he was in love with a man and they actually seemed really happy and then Bruno showed up and fucked everything up” I continued to keep quiet as I watched Adam’s eyes take on a far away look. “He was a friend of Tommy’s from when he was younger. He was only visiting L.A. for a short time, but he left total destruction in his wake. At first he seemed like a really nice guy and seemed to accept that fact that Tommy was friends with a bunch of queers and he really seemed to accept Sutan as Tommy’s partner, but then one night something happened and everything just fucking fell to pieces”
“What happened?” I asked, hanging on Adam’s ever word.
“No one really knows what happened because none of us were there and Tommy and Sutan refuse to talk about it. It was like one day everything was fine and then the next day Bruno was in the hospital, Tommy was in jail and Sutan just pretended like everything was normal, refusing to talk about either of them. It was the oddest fucking thing. I’m the one who had to pick Tommy up from jail and no matter how much I begged him to tell me what the fuck had happened, he flat out refused. It was just a jumbled mess because they weren’t talking to each other, they weren’t talking to me and little by little we all began to drift away from each other. We didn’t speak to each other for nearly a year and then one night out of the blue I got a phone call from Tommy asking if he could come over. I almost said no because I was still so fucking confused and pissed off about what had happened, but I didn’t. He came over and apologized for letting things get as far as he did, but he still refused to tell me what happened between the three of them. He begged me to help him get Sutan back and at first I refused because I couldn’t watch him go through another breakup if Tommy decided to get stupid again, but I found myself caving when my normally staunch and non-emotional Tommy broke down into fucking mess in front of me”
“I find that hard to believe” I heard myself say before I control the fact that I was thinking it.
“Don’t be fooled by the cool demeanor because since that night Tommy became a changed person. If he’s your friend, then your family and he will do anything for family” Adam shared a small smile with me before continuing with his story. "He tried everything to get Sutan to forgive him, but he wouldn't budge. For months he begged, pleaded, bought him things, anything to make him see that Tommy was in love with him but none of that worked. It took Tommy walking into one of Raja's drag shows with nothing on but a cock ring and a leash to make her see that he was serious about their relationship. Its been five years and I still don't know what it was about that that made her change her mind, but they've been happy ever since. Enough talk about Sutan and Tommy, now its fun time for Adam and Kris"
"Well I like that idea" I leered at him playfully, not putting up a fight in the least when he pushed me onto my back before lying on top of me. I also did hesitate when he attacked my lips, kissing me in a way that was getting me hard and quickly. "Where...where's your bedroom?" I rushed out, making an attempt to push Adam off of the couch so we could rush to his room and finish what we started.
"We're in it" He replied quickly, looking embarrassed as he pulled away and sat up.
"What’s wrong?" I asked in confusion.
"Nothing" he replied quickly although I knew he was lying.
"Can we just lay here? It's been a really stressful day and I just want to relax and spend some time with you. Is that ok?" I questioned, unsure of how to react to the way he was acting. He just nodded, shifting in behind me. We lay there in silence for a short time, but I refused to let the mood be broken as turned about to face him. “I’m really happy you brought me here tonight” I spoke softly, laying my hand upon his chest.
“You are?” He seemed completely surprised, which confused me even more because I really had no idea what was going on in his head.
“If you haven’t figured it out by now I like spending time with you” I decided to be truthful, unsure about where we actually stood in our relationship or if we even had a relationship.
“I like spending time with you too” He replied softly, the playfulness coming back to his eyes as he leaned forward and kissed me. I still had no idea what Adam was thinking but I didn’t harp on it as I closed my eyes, slide my free arm around his neck and surrendered to whatever he wanted to do to me.
TBC...