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Oh my..I know I already updated but I HAVE to write again. The medication change has finally caught up to me. I feel that "shocking" feeling like when I stopped Paxil last time. Well..dad recently bought a 65 inch TV (Ryan wanted a big one I guess?) and I HATE it. It's unnecessary and it gives me a headache every time I watch it. Ryan watches this awful show The Wire and I can't stand it..dad was all yelling at me telling me to go in another room. Ok..be exiled and alone away from everyone, thanks. And on Saturday dad was gone for hours..when he came back he said he had cleaned my apartment..he was like "you have too many books! You need to stop buying so many or get rid of them or buy new bookshelves!" Ummm..yeah I have a lot of books..and they're in different places in my apartment..but so what? I LIKE my books and having a place full of books (I've seen other people's houses look way worse than mine with all their books!). So that really irked me. Then he was like "I sorted through clothes on the floor, you need to get rid of so much stuff!" Ok I'll admit I needed to clean and sort through stuff..but I didn't want dad to do it for me! Sorry if this makes me sound ungrateful or something..but I feel like it's an invasion of my space. Well..today when I went home I saw what he had done. Things stacked in neat piles, clothes he found in piles I apparently should get rid of, things in totally different places..I don't mind if he comes over and vacuums or something..but THIS is too much. Yeah I had a lot of books stacked in the slot in my desk..but I WANT them there, not in a pile on the floor. He was looking at the shirts in my closet like "do you wear any of these? How long does it take you to get through them??" Ummmm..why do you care??? He asked me if I was gonna keep it this way (um no) and I said "I dunno.." and he was like "well if not I'll just have to come over and clean it again!" Ummm..NO. WTF. IT'S MY APARTMENT, NOT YOURS. You can obsessively clean at your house but not at MY apartment. I am not going to keep MY SPACE up to your crazy obsessive standards. If he doesn't like it..then he doesn't have to come in! When he left I just started BAWLING. Ugh. I hope the medicine thing levels out soon..
Sorry about the crazy negativity and possible ungratefulness..but I just had to let it out. :/ I hope you don't think too bad of me..
Sorry about the crazy negativity and possible ungratefulness..but I just had to let it out. :/ I hope you don't think too bad of me..