Mental Health Crisis #4
I'm embarrassed to say this, but last Sunday I had to go back to the Psych Ward..the meds they prescribed the previous time for possible bipolar disorder seemed to work ok for a few weeks, and then my depression and anxiety kept building and getting worse, to the point where I was angry the time always went by so quickly, could barely function at work, dreaded doing anything, etc..on Sunday I couldn't take it anymore and went to the hospital. The doctor who admitted me before was there, and when he heard I was on medicine for bipolar, he was like "uhhh, no, you have depression!!" We were all annoyed I was on medicine I didn't need..I also heard Prozac takes like 20 some days to get out of your system all the way, so that must have been what happened. You *have* to go back to the Psych Ward for the hospital to prescribe you meds, so I grudgingly went back..I started Remeron first (another anti-depressant) and the Prozac a couple days later. I remember I was always angry before I first started the Prozac in 2016, and it was NOT good to feel that again..I NEVER should have let them take me off of it in the first place. I was so messed up when I was admitted that EVERYTHING was overwhelming..people talking, rustling of papers, etc..it was awful. There were at least four other patients there that I saw on previous visits, so that made me feel a little less badly about having to go back. I've felt a little better yesterday and today, so I was released today. I'm not really up to going back to work yet (maybe the Christmas party tomorrow), so I'm just going to chill and relax at my parents' house until my mental health gets stronger (I think it takes a couple weeks for the meds to REALLY take effect). I can't wait for this year to be over..except for a couple things, it's been awful. I really need to learn to ask for help sooner though, and not let myself get into a crisis, and not let doctors take me off important meds!! I REALLY don't want to go back to the Psych Ward again lol..I definitely want my life back :P
3. When did you last unexpectedly receive something for free? *shrugs*
4. Do you donate food (or money) to food banks? No
5. Does your mental image of yourself correspond with what you see in the mirror? Not exactly?
6. Would you consider leaving your body to medical science? Or maybe just parts of your body? Maybe if I had a super rare medical thing people could study and learn from..
7. If you could make a 20-second phone call to yourself at any point in your life, when would you call and what would you say? No thanks, I don't like hearing my voice recorded LOL
8. If you could turn one book, comic book or other print story into a feature-length movie or TV series, what would you pick and why? The Worst Journey in the World, it's a story of friendship and hardship that needs to be known more!!
December
1. Who was the president/prime minister/leader of your country when you were born?
2. What is the best way to spiffy-up french fries?
3. When did you last unexpectedly receive something for free?
4. Do you donate food (or money) to food banks?
5. Does your mental image of yourself correspond with what you see in the mirror?
6. Would you consider leaving your body to medical science? Or maybe just parts of your body?
7. If you could make a 20-second phone call to yourself at any point in your life, when would you call and what would you say?
8. If you could turn one book, comic book or other print story into a feature-length movie or TV series, what would you pick and why?
9. Have you ever actually punched someone (not counting a friendly jab to the shoulder)? Have you ever been punched?
10. What product’s packaging do you find excessive or inadequate? What sort of packaging do you hate the most?
11. In terms of personal care products (shampoo, toothpaste, skin care products, deodorants, etc.) do you mostly stick with the same brands, or do you like to try new ones? Are you influenced by price, e.g. buying what's on sale, even if it's not your usual brand?
12. Is there an ingredient you put into almost everything you cook, even if the recipe doesn't call for it? Is there an ingredient that most recipes call for, but that you tend to leave out?
13. Some people believe that if life has no purpose, then there is no reason for living. While others think that if life has no purpose, that frees a person to find/create and follow their own personal purpose. Which is a more valid point of view or are they both equally valid?
14. Would you rather have more kitchen counter space or kitchen cabinet space?
15. How conscious do you think animals are?
16. Did you discover a new (to you) favourite author or musician/band this year?
17. What do you like most about your family?
18. December 18 is "Bake Cookies Day". Do you have a favourite cookie recipe? Care to share?
19. In what forms of housing have you resided?
20. When were you last onstage, literally or figuratively?
21. True or false: people only eat cupcakes for the icing.
22. Do you have a TV series that you wish had run longer than it did? What about one that you think ran on too long?
23. What songs hit you with a wave of nostalgia every time you hear them?
24. Which of your vices or bad habits would be the hardest to give up?
25. Do you self-censor a lot?
26. What happens in your country regularly that people in other countries would find strange or bizarre?
27. Was there ever an event in your life that defied explanation?
28. What decision have you been putting off?
29. Most Valuable Player (MVP): an accolade or award, originally used in team sports to recognize one player for game-changing excellence, and also used outside of sports to recognize excellence in the contributions of an individual to a group effort. Does anyone stand out as your own personal MVP, either at work or in your personal life, for this year?
30. As the year comes to a close, what’s something you’d like to put behind you?
31. As the year comes to a close, what are you looking back upon most fondly?
3. When did you last unexpectedly receive something for free? *shrugs*
4. Do you donate food (or money) to food banks? No
5. Does your mental image of yourself correspond with what you see in the mirror? Not exactly?
6. Would you consider leaving your body to medical science? Or maybe just parts of your body? Maybe if I had a super rare medical thing people could study and learn from..
7. If you could make a 20-second phone call to yourself at any point in your life, when would you call and what would you say? No thanks, I don't like hearing my voice recorded LOL
8. If you could turn one book, comic book or other print story into a feature-length movie or TV series, what would you pick and why? The Worst Journey in the World, it's a story of friendship and hardship that needs to be known more!!
December
1. Who was the president/prime minister/leader of your country when you were born?
2. What is the best way to spiffy-up french fries?
3. When did you last unexpectedly receive something for free?
4. Do you donate food (or money) to food banks?
5. Does your mental image of yourself correspond with what you see in the mirror?
6. Would you consider leaving your body to medical science? Or maybe just parts of your body?
7. If you could make a 20-second phone call to yourself at any point in your life, when would you call and what would you say?
8. If you could turn one book, comic book or other print story into a feature-length movie or TV series, what would you pick and why?
9. Have you ever actually punched someone (not counting a friendly jab to the shoulder)? Have you ever been punched?
10. What product’s packaging do you find excessive or inadequate? What sort of packaging do you hate the most?
11. In terms of personal care products (shampoo, toothpaste, skin care products, deodorants, etc.) do you mostly stick with the same brands, or do you like to try new ones? Are you influenced by price, e.g. buying what's on sale, even if it's not your usual brand?
12. Is there an ingredient you put into almost everything you cook, even if the recipe doesn't call for it? Is there an ingredient that most recipes call for, but that you tend to leave out?
13. Some people believe that if life has no purpose, then there is no reason for living. While others think that if life has no purpose, that frees a person to find/create and follow their own personal purpose. Which is a more valid point of view or are they both equally valid?
14. Would you rather have more kitchen counter space or kitchen cabinet space?
15. How conscious do you think animals are?
16. Did you discover a new (to you) favourite author or musician/band this year?
17. What do you like most about your family?
18. December 18 is "Bake Cookies Day". Do you have a favourite cookie recipe? Care to share?
19. In what forms of housing have you resided?
20. When were you last onstage, literally or figuratively?
21. True or false: people only eat cupcakes for the icing.
22. Do you have a TV series that you wish had run longer than it did? What about one that you think ran on too long?
23. What songs hit you with a wave of nostalgia every time you hear them?
24. Which of your vices or bad habits would be the hardest to give up?
25. Do you self-censor a lot?
26. What happens in your country regularly that people in other countries would find strange or bizarre?
27. Was there ever an event in your life that defied explanation?
28. What decision have you been putting off?
29. Most Valuable Player (MVP): an accolade or award, originally used in team sports to recognize one player for game-changing excellence, and also used outside of sports to recognize excellence in the contributions of an individual to a group effort. Does anyone stand out as your own personal MVP, either at work or in your personal life, for this year?
30. As the year comes to a close, what’s something you’d like to put behind you?
31. As the year comes to a close, what are you looking back upon most fondly?