Grandpa..Uncle
It's been half a year since my grandfather passed away in the accident. My dad still blames himself..it's not his fault. Sometimes I still expect Pop to answer the phone when I call Nan. I miss hearing him say "Heeeey Trabis!". I wish there were some way I could see him again, and tell him I love him, and see how he's doing. I know I can't though, I know he's a good ways away from me right now. It must be hard for Nan. She's living alone now, I'm sorry Nanny..she lost her daughter a few years back, now her husband. It's got to be so hard..
My uncle..just died right after the Virginia Tech shooting. Almost a month ago, this Thursday.. He had so many problems, but such a big heart. For a man so abused for being gay, he had the largest heart I've ever seen. I'm not ready for him to be gone.. I still find myself thinking he's in California. He wanted to save me from this place.. He wanted to get me away from all the abuse here.. He was my hero.. Granny's taking it hard..Grandaddy too.. They lost their son.. Granny couldn't be with him like she wanted. She was in the hospital. I'm trying my best to take care of her when I can, so she can heal up from her surgery and so..she can heal from this. I miss you Warren.. I wish we could've spent more time together.. We watched Idol together..he wanted Melinda to win. I guess..my high hopes..my just..yearning to do something good..to make people happy..to help people stop hurting.. I tried to get as many people to vote for her as possible..so my family could smile and say..you got what you wanted Warren. As little as it was I just wanted to do something..she was voted off. It tore me up..but it's ok.. Melinda's a winner as it is. I felt like a failure..and I guess my habit came out for the Virginia Tech thing too..hearing Margret on the phone.
I miss you both..I'm sorry I didn't get to spend more time with you. I love you.
My uncle..just died right after the Virginia Tech shooting. Almost a month ago, this Thursday.. He had so many problems, but such a big heart. For a man so abused for being gay, he had the largest heart I've ever seen. I'm not ready for him to be gone.. I still find myself thinking he's in California. He wanted to save me from this place.. He wanted to get me away from all the abuse here.. He was my hero.. Granny's taking it hard..Grandaddy too.. They lost their son.. Granny couldn't be with him like she wanted. She was in the hospital. I'm trying my best to take care of her when I can, so she can heal up from her surgery and so..she can heal from this. I miss you Warren.. I wish we could've spent more time together.. We watched Idol together..he wanted Melinda to win. I guess..my high hopes..my just..yearning to do something good..to make people happy..to help people stop hurting.. I tried to get as many people to vote for her as possible..so my family could smile and say..you got what you wanted Warren. As little as it was I just wanted to do something..she was voted off. It tore me up..but it's ok.. Melinda's a winner as it is. I felt like a failure..and I guess my habit came out for the Virginia Tech thing too..hearing Margret on the phone.
I miss you both..I'm sorry I didn't get to spend more time with you. I love you.