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So I don't know. I seem to be fine with everything until I actually stop and think about it and realize that I'm really little or no better off than I have been.
I'm afraid of dating. Afraid of rejection, don't feel I am good enough for a decent person, afraid I'll mess up anything good I'd have enough good furtune to fall into. But I don't want to be alone. In some ways it may be easier on my mind to just be alone and live with it but I really don't want that... I'm happy for others, I really am, it's just steps I've never gotten to... and in such short time...
Don't know why I'm posting this really but I guess sometimes you just need an outlet.
I'm afraid of dating. Afraid of rejection, don't feel I am good enough for a decent person, afraid I'll mess up anything good I'd have enough good furtune to fall into. But I don't want to be alone. In some ways it may be easier on my mind to just be alone and live with it but I really don't want that... I'm happy for others, I really am, it's just steps I've never gotten to... and in such short time...
Don't know why I'm posting this really but I guess sometimes you just need an outlet.