Time for an update.....
all i can say is i've beem thinking WAY to much and im just going to stop so i can feel normal again.....phew.
I just found out that im leaving for California a week from today.....crazy. Im going to see my sister...its going to be so werid because it dosne't even feel like i have a sister anymore. But i think i'll be happy when i get to renew my sisterly bond...lol.
Tomorrow is the band banquet...and i bought a dress....haha....i never wear dresses.
I'm feeling a slight sense of releif...i don't know why...but something is there holding me up. To me it feels like a miracle.....maybe thats why i am still here.
I just found out that im leaving for California a week from today.....crazy. Im going to see my sister...its going to be so werid because it dosne't even feel like i have a sister anymore. But i think i'll be happy when i get to renew my sisterly bond...lol.
Tomorrow is the band banquet...and i bought a dress....haha....i never wear dresses.
I'm feeling a slight sense of releif...i don't know why...but something is there holding me up. To me it feels like a miracle.....maybe thats why i am still here.