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once again feeling useless. haha. im watching white oleander which reminds me of new york watching it with marina and justine and just crying. ryan and i got into a fight over nothing again and now him and i are playing those stupid IM games that im so sick of. i just want him to be ungrounded so i can see him. i only have math class now so im coming to school around 2 p.m. it feels not having so much work to do on a sunday night but i guess i woked my ass off duiring the school year for exactly this purpose. i feel like i did bad on every ap test and i dont want to know my sat scores. i started smoking again way too much this time and i hate the person im becoming. i need to get away from my current lifestyle and just relax. i wanna hang out with drew more. seeing him friday made me miss him and 10th grade when i would pretty much live with him on teh weekends. justine is coming to fl late june so im PUMPED! haha its gonna be awesome. i finally have time to finish the last 3 hitchikers guide to galaxy books. then prepare to do sat 2's. mmm fun. well later days.