Waiting...
and wondering if things will change, and I'll find what I'm looking for or be given the opportunity to say how I feel instead of just taking initiative and risking "being a bitch" or feeling like the effort was for nothing. I've been wearing my heart on my sleeve so much that I even surprised myself looking back. I think I say enough about that so I'll move on...
Wellll I passed my test!! I got my nursing license! Ah it was such a relief to find out I don't have to study for another crazy hard exam again for a long time. When I get my bachelor's I won't need to study for another exam to get it because those students take the same NCLEX. After I found out I passed it was on! By that I mean I was looking and looking for jobs. So many jobs that I would've loved to have like NICU, PICU, hematology/oncology clinic, multiple ER's, transplant ICU, special care nursery, and more! No one called me back though. I talked with lots of people who all said it's a lot harder for new grads to get jobs and most employers want experienced nurses. I had HR recruiters trying to tell me about jobs in June-July for new grads. I was like WTF! What did they expect me to do till then? Idk how other people are doing it, but my dad offered to get my an interview in the Cath Lab with an old friend. I said yes and went in yesterday for the interview. They passed me around like the town whore. I got interviewed by 3 people and met a lot of the staff. Everyone was really nice to me, and I liked what they said I would be trained to do. The only thing is idk how and where I'll sleep now. I'll have to be asleep before 10 for the first 6 months. Mike doesn't get home till 11, so that means I won't be able to sleep at his house :( I'm really sad about that. I hope we don't drift apart. We've been through a lot of crazy schedules though. One of the interviewers was saying that I'll have to go in at like 5:30 :-/ That really sucks, but man considering the fact that having a license and a degree is not enough to get an interview I'm lucky I got a job. I start March 1st. I don't know a lot of details, but I'm supposed to get a call soon. I'm kind of excited about my first check. At first I thought I would be getting paid a shitload with no benefits which was fine because my dad can keep me on his insurance till I'm 22. Today they called and offered me full time with benefits, which was less money due to insurance and stuff, but I was like fuck it. I haven't had a job since I was 16. I can make $800 last 4 months. That's what I've been doing for the last 2 months and the last two summers, so I'm not very concerned with what they're paying cause I know I could definitely use the money. I'm kind of excited about my first check! idk what I'm gonna do with it. I mean I know I have to pay my car insurance and gym membership, but wow. It'll be the first time I have a lot of money in my bank in a long time, and the real kicker is that I'll have more in 2wks! That just doesn't happen to me!
I think this will negatively affect my chance at ever getting into NICU/PICU, but I need to act in the now. Sometimes I don't make the best choice because I can be too future oriented. I have a small strategy for getting into the Children's hospital for when I do decided to leave this job, but that won't be any time soon. I'm just going to have to accept it, hope for the best, and focus on now. So... Yay!!!
Wellll I passed my test!! I got my nursing license! Ah it was such a relief to find out I don't have to study for another crazy hard exam again for a long time. When I get my bachelor's I won't need to study for another exam to get it because those students take the same NCLEX. After I found out I passed it was on! By that I mean I was looking and looking for jobs. So many jobs that I would've loved to have like NICU, PICU, hematology/oncology clinic, multiple ER's, transplant ICU, special care nursery, and more! No one called me back though. I talked with lots of people who all said it's a lot harder for new grads to get jobs and most employers want experienced nurses. I had HR recruiters trying to tell me about jobs in June-July for new grads. I was like WTF! What did they expect me to do till then? Idk how other people are doing it, but my dad offered to get my an interview in the Cath Lab with an old friend. I said yes and went in yesterday for the interview. They passed me around like the town whore. I got interviewed by 3 people and met a lot of the staff. Everyone was really nice to me, and I liked what they said I would be trained to do. The only thing is idk how and where I'll sleep now. I'll have to be asleep before 10 for the first 6 months. Mike doesn't get home till 11, so that means I won't be able to sleep at his house :( I'm really sad about that. I hope we don't drift apart. We've been through a lot of crazy schedules though. One of the interviewers was saying that I'll have to go in at like 5:30 :-/ That really sucks, but man considering the fact that having a license and a degree is not enough to get an interview I'm lucky I got a job. I start March 1st. I don't know a lot of details, but I'm supposed to get a call soon. I'm kind of excited about my first check. At first I thought I would be getting paid a shitload with no benefits which was fine because my dad can keep me on his insurance till I'm 22. Today they called and offered me full time with benefits, which was less money due to insurance and stuff, but I was like fuck it. I haven't had a job since I was 16. I can make $800 last 4 months. That's what I've been doing for the last 2 months and the last two summers, so I'm not very concerned with what they're paying cause I know I could definitely use the money. I'm kind of excited about my first check! idk what I'm gonna do with it. I mean I know I have to pay my car insurance and gym membership, but wow. It'll be the first time I have a lot of money in my bank in a long time, and the real kicker is that I'll have more in 2wks! That just doesn't happen to me!
I think this will negatively affect my chance at ever getting into NICU/PICU, but I need to act in the now. Sometimes I don't make the best choice because I can be too future oriented. I have a small strategy for getting into the Children's hospital for when I do decided to leave this job, but that won't be any time soon. I'm just going to have to accept it, hope for the best, and focus on now. So... Yay!!!