Is this bad?
Well I finished my case studies!!
So I'm a GN, and I now have authority to work in the hospitals alongside an RN.
I thought I would feel more relieved when I finished them until the dean told me I should take the NCLEX asap. I decided to partially take her advice and test 3 weeks from last Friday instead of a month after.
I'm really scared. I've found that I don't have confidence in my abilities anymore. I never had a problem with test anxiety until I got to the HESI. That was my first real failure that mattered. I think people implying that my group, the project cuidar students, had testing difficulties also made me believe it as well. If not that, I know it made me think I don't have test anxiety; I just don't try so hard it makes me pop, and that results in mediocre-fairly good grades. This was all so until the HESI which is very comparable to the NCLEX. I am so borderline that it's sick.
I made myself crazy studying for the HESI retake. It worked against me tremendously to the point where I believe I may have passed if I wasn't so anxious. I peed 3 times during the test and only had less than 20oz of fluid to drink. I don't want to make myself crazy getting ready for this test, but I also don't want to take it too lightly. I don't know if the study plan I prescribed for myself is sufficient, but I don't want to ask my dad cause he's always 3 steps ahead of me. I told him I graduated and he sent me 10 texts in 10 minutes, none of which said congratulations. He was asking when I will test, if I applied for this job, did I get any calls... etc. 5 days have gone by, and I still haven't applied for a job. I'm afraid I won't have time to study if I get hired somewhere, but it is unusual to not work when you're a GN. That's the best part about being a GN. Ahh and ughh this is scary. I just had to get that out. See you in 2ish weeks? :-/
The dean told me to be affirmative and believe in my success. She said I know it, but it's just hard cause I know so much. I'm trying to believe in myself the way she does.
So I'm a GN, and I now have authority to work in the hospitals alongside an RN.
I thought I would feel more relieved when I finished them until the dean told me I should take the NCLEX asap. I decided to partially take her advice and test 3 weeks from last Friday instead of a month after.
I'm really scared. I've found that I don't have confidence in my abilities anymore. I never had a problem with test anxiety until I got to the HESI. That was my first real failure that mattered. I think people implying that my group, the project cuidar students, had testing difficulties also made me believe it as well. If not that, I know it made me think I don't have test anxiety; I just don't try so hard it makes me pop, and that results in mediocre-fairly good grades. This was all so until the HESI which is very comparable to the NCLEX. I am so borderline that it's sick.
I made myself crazy studying for the HESI retake. It worked against me tremendously to the point where I believe I may have passed if I wasn't so anxious. I peed 3 times during the test and only had less than 20oz of fluid to drink. I don't want to make myself crazy getting ready for this test, but I also don't want to take it too lightly. I don't know if the study plan I prescribed for myself is sufficient, but I don't want to ask my dad cause he's always 3 steps ahead of me. I told him I graduated and he sent me 10 texts in 10 minutes, none of which said congratulations. He was asking when I will test, if I applied for this job, did I get any calls... etc. 5 days have gone by, and I still haven't applied for a job. I'm afraid I won't have time to study if I get hired somewhere, but it is unusual to not work when you're a GN. That's the best part about being a GN. Ahh and ughh this is scary. I just had to get that out. See you in 2ish weeks? :-/
The dean told me to be affirmative and believe in my success. She said I know it, but it's just hard cause I know so much. I'm trying to believe in myself the way she does.