Nothing's ever easy, in the world of a Gizzy.
"Don't say you feel the same way too, honey I don't think you doooo..."
I've lost all direction.
Today was the day that ended all days. I had to go to my Dad's today and tell him I was'nt coming back. It's so constant and annoying, I wish I knew where my life would settle, but its all so scattered.
This is my second time leaving him, and as much as I say I hate him, he was allways there for me, and I owe him so much more than I've done for him.
"Its so difficult to clean your room again, because well, I really miss you around here and your all I have, ( sobs and sniffles through the phone) I just miss you."
That just totally tore my heart out, and I feel so fucking bad.
I feel so out of place. Where the fuck do I belong? where the fuck is my life going? I've become a fucking nomad, wandering from all my friends houses to the next, trying to get myself out of a fucking rut I didnt even create.
And I have like no one to talk to either. Fuck, wheres your fucking boyfriend when you need him? :/
I can't shake this fucking feeling, and I dont think I'll be able to untill I see him again. I dont want to abandon him, because well, he's all I got. Fuck. I feel like crying. Nothing's easy for me. Nothing.
Maybe I should become emo, I mean, I do look cool in emo glasses...
Nah. :D
I've lost all direction.
Today was the day that ended all days. I had to go to my Dad's today and tell him I was'nt coming back. It's so constant and annoying, I wish I knew where my life would settle, but its all so scattered.
This is my second time leaving him, and as much as I say I hate him, he was allways there for me, and I owe him so much more than I've done for him.
"Its so difficult to clean your room again, because well, I really miss you around here and your all I have, ( sobs and sniffles through the phone) I just miss you."
That just totally tore my heart out, and I feel so fucking bad.
I feel so out of place. Where the fuck do I belong? where the fuck is my life going? I've become a fucking nomad, wandering from all my friends houses to the next, trying to get myself out of a fucking rut I didnt even create.
And I have like no one to talk to either. Fuck, wheres your fucking boyfriend when you need him? :/
I can't shake this fucking feeling, and I dont think I'll be able to untill I see him again. I dont want to abandon him, because well, he's all I got. Fuck. I feel like crying. Nothing's easy for me. Nothing.
Maybe I should become emo, I mean, I do look cool in emo glasses...
Nah. :D