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things are just crazy lately. emotions are up, everyone is leaving soon. i miss kris..
that whole thing is so confusing, i don't know what i'm feeling.
but for the most part, everything is under control. and i've just recently realized how big an issue control is to me. i think that is a big part of why i have trouble in a romantic relationship, because i'm not in full control, and i can't be. and i can't stand not being in control. i really want to be capable of being in a relationship though, so i guess i need to just "lose control."
easier said than done!
this weekend should be fun, SCPD banquet on friday night, after which everyone is going out! then saturday is tan day @ the beach.. yes! i want to be tan this summer. oh wow and i almost forgot, friday is the first day of my internship! i'm excited/nervous. i really hope it goes well, because it kind of sets the pace for the rest of the summer. i pray that it will!
goodnight
that whole thing is so confusing, i don't know what i'm feeling.
but for the most part, everything is under control. and i've just recently realized how big an issue control is to me. i think that is a big part of why i have trouble in a romantic relationship, because i'm not in full control, and i can't be. and i can't stand not being in control. i really want to be capable of being in a relationship though, so i guess i need to just "lose control."
easier said than done!
this weekend should be fun, SCPD banquet on friday night, after which everyone is going out! then saturday is tan day @ the beach.. yes! i want to be tan this summer. oh wow and i almost forgot, friday is the first day of my internship! i'm excited/nervous. i really hope it goes well, because it kind of sets the pace for the rest of the summer. i pray that it will!
goodnight