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i feel like i hold my breath for 4 months. hold my breath while i contribute much time and energy to school work, then i breathe when i see my grades. why are grades so important to me? i don't know, maybe because it's a tangible scrawl of ink on a tangible piece of paper proving that i did indeed work, and that i did indeed study and learn the required facts. it helps me see that i DO have a future, when often times i feel that it's just this blank slate and i have no idea what to write. i've become more involved in school though, by joining SAM (society for advancement of management). i love it, and am really involved with it. infact i'm an on the e-board, with the title of co-marketing chair. i design the website, flyers, any templates involving artwork or graphics. i basically design everything that our potential members and members take in and judge us by. it's fun, i love it, and i'm going to stick with it.
i also applied for the corporate mentor program at csulb. if accepted, i will become a "corporate mentee" and will tagalong whomever my mentor is, getting to view the corporate workplace and realize what it's all about. i hope i leave the program with a better sense of if i want to further pursue my current major of business management.
and have i been having any fun? absolutely not! if you know me, you know i'm an uptight, bun wearing, librarian-like, girl. no just kidding about the description, but i haven't had any serious fun for a while. although little trips on campus with dana that involve boy scouting have been about the extent of my fun-having.
haha i don't know why i'm writing like this right now! i'm in a very... technical mood? and ugh i have work at 1, work which i'd really rather not do right now. hopefully i am working with fun people tonight!
alors, je dois preparer ou je serai en retard! a tout a l'heure mes cheris.