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Yesterday during church Chris had notified me that his grandmother had passed away. My greatest condolences, my friend. I have not met my grand parents, they all left before I was born. But I know what it is like to lose family and to lose friends.
After church my mother asked me to join them in eating lunch in China town. I thought it would be good to spend time with my family but it was rough. For the first half hour we were there I couldn't even eat. In fact my eyes watered and I could not look at anyone in the eye. Why am I still breaking down like this, and in public.
Before I slept last night (this morning) I prayed. I prayed so much that others would feel the healing grace but I did not ask for it, others are more deserving. Those whose hearts are full of grief from the lost. I felt unworthy... but to feel that way is to forget God's love.
After church my mother asked me to join them in eating lunch in China town. I thought it would be good to spend time with my family but it was rough. For the first half hour we were there I couldn't even eat. In fact my eyes watered and I could not look at anyone in the eye. Why am I still breaking down like this, and in public.
Before I slept last night (this morning) I prayed. I prayed so much that others would feel the healing grace but I did not ask for it, others are more deserving. Those whose hearts are full of grief from the lost. I felt unworthy... but to feel that way is to forget God's love.