lost a day
yesterday was ridiculous in how little i did. i'm sick, but still. that day might as well not existed for me. but im sure mass other people did some really cool stuff so ill wont curse it completely.
im sick in some strange way right now. my stomach is like.........sore. two nights ago i didnt sleep but maybe an hour it hurt so bad. i contimplated driving to the hospital or waking my parents up or something but i didnt and i got through it. i never once felt like throwing up though which is not usaul for me when my stomach hurts. but i slept most of yesterday feeling alittle better but still my stomach was sore when i moved around so i didnt move. i slept well last night and jsut awoke and i still feel really weird. and my sides are sore like they have been alot recently. i keep thinking its just from all the turning i do at my job but maybe it's an organ or something all enflamed or someinthing. ug, i hope not. though it would be nice to go to the docter and let them take blood with out fear. im sure they'll test me since last time i had an "undisclosed opiate" in my blood haha. my docter yelled at me ha. that was right after aryn and I broke up. man. it shook me up pretty hard at the time. i did drugs a couple times after but it wasn't ever really the same to me after that for some reason. but last summer my love of them was wavering. even though west fest was so fun and then the night playing put putt and going to hamilton target or what ever haha. there are like ten good stories from that night alone for sean, keith, and me haha. bannanas and road signs adn mulligans. but i realized soon after that i didnt need any substance to be that person that had that much fun and said all those wild things. it wasn't that substance turning me into something, it really was just me beign more comfortable on them. but that is changeing everyday. i dont want them, and that is the truth. i didnt want them even after all the offers at bonnaroo. my inulgence has awitched to life and people and music. it seems equally as dangerous if you ask me. but at least my body seems much thankful. first time i've been sick in like............a long time. which is so unlike me.
anyway, dont know why im talking about this. summer is lazy now and im happy. but my work for the summer has to start now. of maybe this weekend ha. but seropuisly. i have lots of song lyrics to write for recording next week while sean is gone for the next two weeks. and alot of song to arragne in a more final draft sort of way. plus a couple violin parts in my head that i need to figure out actaully which takes much longer than it does on the other instraments between head and fingers. plus i need to set up everything in my room once i go over to sean's tommrow probally to get my p.a. and my real amp. plus anything i have over there like my capo and slide. today is about song lyrics.
i joined a pool ha. a public pool 0o00o0.. but i swam twice and would be now if i still wasn't feeling wierd as shit. ryan pool behind st catherine's. got to leave your money and cell phone in the car cause they'll steal it! but besides that it's pretty tight. one lap lan always open to someone and i dont mind waiting in the sun. and then fifteen minutes on every hour for adult swim. haha. im an adult. im glad there's no test for it. but i might be sore from that too i guess. anyway, i need to go make some eggs cause i need a protein boost for real after bearly eating yesterday save pretzels, the snack invented to represent a saint with arms folded in prayer haha, fucking jepordy. and then i got to go call "christine" some bitchy lady from uc who sayts i filled out two late waiver forms and so they both got cancelled when! i totally only filled out one in my life since i never even knew about them till a week ago and they never responded, and they fucking cashed my check but didnt take the money off my total online. i really dont want to deal with this right now. but such is vive. oh well, im glad lily is back in town though ha.
bye people. hope your days are good as summer comes softly in.
~tommy
oh and p.s.- sean is doing good