Bear with me....

[giveupthegun]

I have had one of the most amazing....if not best summers of my life. I live in a pretty cool town for once, and I just moved into a new house, and these things should be making me feel good. Well they are not..... besides the rampant car trouble I've had lately (which in itself is ridiculous, cause I just bought the friggin' thing) My favorite person in the world is gone for school. I thought I could hold myself together for today....first day apart is always rough...but....I feel completely and utterly miserable. I feel like a part of my soul is missing, and as cheesy as I'm sure you all think that sounds...I feel it's true. When you get this close to someone then in an instant it's kinda all....gone, you react harshly.

I am literally out of tears. I can walk around with the knot in my throat for hours...but nothing seems to come right now. I'm sure by when I go to bed I'll feel fine. And by fine I mean.....really terrible. If you believe in prayer...I wouldn't mind some.

I took the bus to my new home all the way from The berger's new home. go team Ryan!

my car sucks.

Ryan