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wow
just when i could have so easily been pulled away, God comes and pulls me straight back. latly i have been so easily forming into what this world is asking of me, and what i thought i wanted, what i thought meant everything to me. this wasnt making me happy, in fact it was making things worse and worse. i really wasnt looking forward to bible study this week, i didnt want to be confronted. But God found a way to make it so bible study was changed to being at my house, so that i couldnt be tempted to not go. and praise him that he did, he spoke to me tonight through the beattitudes in mathew in a way that brought me to tears (and those that know me well know that im not a cryer). how could i treat God the way i treat him and have him return that treatment with unfailing and mindblowing love. love that saves and forgives. i cant even begin to understand how he does it time after time after time and not get fed up with me. i long to hold the values that God treasures, not what the world treasures. humilty, a pure heart, mercy, mourn of my sins, meek, hunger for rightiousness, peacemaker, persecution. and i know that i will go to bed, wake up and be disatisfied with myself and skip lunch, or impatient that i am not yet working in the music industry and wish i was in a relationship, and the list goes on.. BUT God has made me alive in Christ and for that i am thankful. i pray that the longing that God has unvieled for me to see tonight will last forever in all of us.
blessed are the poor in spirit, for thiers is teh kingdom of heaven
blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted
blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth
blessed are those who hunger and thirst for rightiousness, for they shall be satisfied
blessed are the merciful, for they shall recieve mercy
blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God
blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God
blessed are those who are persecuted for rightiousness' sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven
blessed are you when others revile you and persecute you and utter all kinds of evil against you falsely on my account.
Rejoice and be glad, for your reward is great in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you.
Mathew 5:3-12
just when i could have so easily been pulled away, God comes and pulls me straight back. latly i have been so easily forming into what this world is asking of me, and what i thought i wanted, what i thought meant everything to me. this wasnt making me happy, in fact it was making things worse and worse. i really wasnt looking forward to bible study this week, i didnt want to be confronted. But God found a way to make it so bible study was changed to being at my house, so that i couldnt be tempted to not go. and praise him that he did, he spoke to me tonight through the beattitudes in mathew in a way that brought me to tears (and those that know me well know that im not a cryer). how could i treat God the way i treat him and have him return that treatment with unfailing and mindblowing love. love that saves and forgives. i cant even begin to understand how he does it time after time after time and not get fed up with me. i long to hold the values that God treasures, not what the world treasures. humilty, a pure heart, mercy, mourn of my sins, meek, hunger for rightiousness, peacemaker, persecution. and i know that i will go to bed, wake up and be disatisfied with myself and skip lunch, or impatient that i am not yet working in the music industry and wish i was in a relationship, and the list goes on.. BUT God has made me alive in Christ and for that i am thankful. i pray that the longing that God has unvieled for me to see tonight will last forever in all of us.
blessed are the poor in spirit, for thiers is teh kingdom of heaven
blessed are those who mourn, for they shall be comforted
blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth
blessed are those who hunger and thirst for rightiousness, for they shall be satisfied
blessed are the merciful, for they shall recieve mercy
blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God
blessed are the peacemakers, for they shall be called sons of God
blessed are those who are persecuted for rightiousness' sake, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven
blessed are you when others revile you and persecute you and utter all kinds of evil against you falsely on my account.
Rejoice and be glad, for your reward is great in heaven, for so they persecuted the prophets who were before you.
Mathew 5:3-12