Regret
I've received an e-mail from Evalon several days ago. She has found love in the arms of another.
My feelings about this are ambivalent. I am glad Evalon has finally found the happiness that she has craved as long as I've known her. But I find myself wracked with guilt and regret that I was unable to find her sooner.
I am also concerned for her safety, as two vampires present a larger target to a Slayer than one.
However, as it is clear she has moved on with her life in this world, I cannot object to her choice. Perhaps if I had been here, things might have been different...no. It is pointless to dwell on the past. I wish Evalon all the best. She will always have my love.
//engage firewall
Evalon has chosen the love of another before Moloch's love. This is expected, yet unacceptable. She will be made to share my love.
The woman Astraeia harbors doubts about me. She is foolish to think she can hide her doubts from me behind a firewall. She may not be receptive to my love.
This bears watching. She could prove disruptive to my efforts to spread my love and deal with the Slayer.
Willy shares my love. He will function as my eyes and ears if coaxed properly. Perhaps he will be successful in swaying his wife and Evalon to accept my love.
Still...it may be best to ready my followers in Los Angeles. Preparations to share my love will need to be put on hold, but I will have Leon prepare to travel to Sunnydale for me. Leon shares my love. They all share my love.
They will help others embrace my love.
//end entry
My feelings about this are ambivalent. I am glad Evalon has finally found the happiness that she has craved as long as I've known her. But I find myself wracked with guilt and regret that I was unable to find her sooner.
I am also concerned for her safety, as two vampires present a larger target to a Slayer than one.
However, as it is clear she has moved on with her life in this world, I cannot object to her choice. Perhaps if I had been here, things might have been different...no. It is pointless to dwell on the past. I wish Evalon all the best. She will always have my love.
//engage firewall
Evalon has chosen the love of another before Moloch's love. This is expected, yet unacceptable. She will be made to share my love.
The woman Astraeia harbors doubts about me. She is foolish to think she can hide her doubts from me behind a firewall. She may not be receptive to my love.
This bears watching. She could prove disruptive to my efforts to spread my love and deal with the Slayer.
Willy shares my love. He will function as my eyes and ears if coaxed properly. Perhaps he will be successful in swaying his wife and Evalon to accept my love.
Still...it may be best to ready my followers in Los Angeles. Preparations to share my love will need to be put on hold, but I will have Leon prepare to travel to Sunnydale for me. Leon shares my love. They all share my love.
They will help others embrace my love.
//end entry