Resolutions
Yes, yes, I know this is dull - but necessary.
When 2005 was but the squarking bastard child of 2004, I posted this - givemethegun's first set of LJ New Year Resolutions. Many of which are the same this year, I'm afraid. But two I managed to accomplish, so it's at least a step in the right direction.
Five personally significant events of 2005:
1. Two close friends died.
2. I lost another close friend through poor regulation of behaviour.
3. I got a job, and stuck at it against all odds (take a look at me, now).
4. Three significant visitations/holidays throughout the year, compounding excellent friendships made. 2005, with all its faults, was actually quite a social year for me. Although on the flipside there were also many heated and bitter arguements and fallings-out over stupid issues.
5. I fell in love, which was probably the last thing I'd ever expect to have done.
Five things that 2005 taught me:
1. Okay - don't puke - but no matter how shitty things get, nothing is insurmountable with the support of brilliant people. Whenever I'm lacking in spirit of adventure, I look to Mars. Whenever I need to get my shit together and be tough, I look to Maria. Whenever I feel lacking in family support, I recognise my real family as the most incredible network of friends. I'm truly blessed.
2. You must take great risks to reap great rewards.
3. That there is a future, and it may or may not contain robots.
4. The person you could actually spend the rest of your life with could be right underneath your nose. It doesn't matter if he lives on the other side of the planet - and in America, of all places - or that the challenge to be with such a person is made to seem impossible (logicstically, socially, etc). If it can be, and it should be, it will be.
5. White chocolate still makes me vomit.
Five things I want to do in 2006:
1. *sigh* Get fit, for fuck's sake.
2. *sigh* Quit smoking, for fuck's sake.
3. Be more social, artistic, brave, assertive, a better person, blah blah.
4. Enjoy a white christmas, complete with kitten in a box under the tree.
5. Meet a whole bunch of people from my Flist when I go to the States.
Five things I don't want to do in 2006:
1. Get my back-up so easily/be so damned angry/aggressive/self-righteous when dealing with (people I consider to be) idiots.
2. Be such a crappy friend - I'm lax in communications at the best of times, and am often neglectful of the people who are important to me.
3. Be so creatively lazy, or just lazy in general.
4. Lose any more friends, either to death or by my own stupid mouth.
5. Let my negatively lead me down any dangerous paths.
I don't think I've ever answered a meme with such a severe lack of humour. What a bunch 'o' schmultz.
1. WHAT DID YOU DO IN 2005 THAT YOU'D NEVER DONE BEFORE?
Masturbated without wearing gloves and a mask.
2. DID YOU KEEP YOUR NEW YEARS' RESOLUTIONS, AND WILL YOU MAKE MORE FOR NEXT YEAR?
No, and if I'm bored enough to do this meme, I'm obviously bored enough to make New Year's Resolutio...O. Too late.
3. DID ANYONE CLOSE TO YOU GIVE BIRTH?
mr_nixon coughed something up in June, but we're not quite sure whether that counts as 'giving birth' yet.
4. DID ANYONE CLOSE TO YOU DIE?
Do you even read my journal, meme?!
5. WHAT COUNTRIES DID YOU VISIT?
Flavour country.
6. WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO HAVE IN 2006 THAT YOU LACKED IN 2005?
Balls.
7. WHAT DATES FROM 2004 WILL REMAIN ETCHED UPON YOUR MEMORY AND WHY?
I can't even remember last week, let alone anything that happened in 2004.
8. WHAT WAS YOUR BIGGEST ACHIEVEMENT OF THE YEAR?
Climbing a mountain and not falling off.
9. WHAT WAS YOUR BIGGEST FAILURE?
Climbing a mountain and not falling off.
10. DID YOU SUFFER ILLNESS OR INJURY?
I only have 2 lives left out of 9.
11. WHAT WAS THE BEST THING YOU BOUGHT?
helluvatough bought me something in Sydney, which has proven quite useful *S*
12. WHOSE BEHAVIOUR MERITED CELEBRATION?
Too many to mention.
13. WHOSE BEHAVIOUR MADE YOU APPALLED AND DEPRESSED?
My own.
14. WHERE DID MOST OF YOUR MONEY GO?
Hookers, booze, licorice.
15. WHAT DID YOU GET REALLY, REALLY, REALLY EXCITED ABOUT?
Octopus porn.
16. WHAT SONG WILL ALWAYS REMIND YOU OF 2005?
Bottle Baby, Glen Richards.
17. COMPARED TO THIS TIME LAST YEAR ARE YOU:
a) Happier or sadder? Sappier.
b) Thinner or fatter? *sigh*
c) Richer or poorer? Richer.
18. WHAT DO YOU WISH YOU'D DONE MORE OF?
Harry Potter fanfic.
19. WHAT DO YOU WISH YOU'D DONE LESS OF?
Bitching and moaning.
20. WHAT DID YOU DO ON CHRISTMAS?
Can't remember, but was with helluvatough so it must have been good.
21. DID YOU FALL IN LOVE IN 2005?
...are you testing me, meme?
22. HOW MANY ONE-NIGHT STANDS?
Zero.
23. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVOURITE TV PROGRAM?
Survivor. Also, Deadwood.
24. DO YOU HATE ANYONE NOW THAT YOU DIDN'T HATE LAST YEAR?
I don't hate people. I destroy them, and move on.
25. WHAT WAS THE BEST BOOK YOU READ?
Didn't read much this year, oddly, but probably In The Aeroplane Over The Sea, by Kim Cooper.
26. WHAT WAS YOUR GREATEST MUSICAL DISCOVERY?
Neutral Milk Hotel - I was slow off the mark (and they never did make a ripple in Australia), and Sigur Ros - also, slow.
27. WHAT DID YOU WANT AND GET?
A job - to be able to afford holidays with the people I love.
28. WHAT DID YOU WANT AND NOT GET?
My driver's licence.
29. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVOURITE FILM OF THE YEAR?
This year was kinda crappy for favourite films...I did enjoy Kung Fu Hustle, Serenity, and I can't wait to (finally, goddammit) see Wolf Creek, will eventually see King Kong...uh. Was more into television series this year, anyhow.
30. WHAT DID YOU DO ON YOUR BIRTHDAY, AND HOW OLD WERE YOU?
Can't remember (no doubt stayed home crying into a black candle), and I turned 29.
31. WHAT ONE THING WOULD HAVE MADE YOUR YEAR IMMEASURABLY MORE SATISFYING?
Discipline.
32. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONAL FASHION CONCEPT IN 2005?
Hobo-esque.
33. WHAT KEPT YOU SANE?
Not having rabies or syphilis.
34. WHICH CELEBRITY/PUBLIC FIGURE DID YOU FANCY THE MOST?
This year wasn't a big one for celebrity-lust.
35. WHAT POLITICAL ISSUE STIRRED YOU THE MOST?
I'm sure I got angry and impotently indignant at many political issues this year.
36. WHO DID YOU MISS?
My terrorist.
37. WHO WAS THE BEST NEW PERSON YOU MET?
Most of the people I'd met in 2005 had been around for a while.
38. TELL US A VALUABLE LIFE LESSON YOU LEARNED IN 2005:
Drag Queen shows don't play in Kings Cross (Sydney) on Wednesday nights.
39. QUOTE A SONG LYRIC THAT SUMS UP YOUR YEAR.
I’m so glad that my memory is remote
’Cos I’m doing just fine hour to hour, note to note - Waltz #2, Elliott Smith.