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I put on Kill the Rock and danced around like crazy alone in my bedroom this morning. Well, afternoon. It was fun but then I began to feel dizzy and lightheaded, my stomach hurt and I thought I may pass out. That's when I realized we honestly have no food in the house and I haven't been eating. This may be contributing to the lack of energy.
I'm sick of talking about my problems, whether it be in here or in person, everyone has got problems but it seems that right now, at this exact moment, everything is shitty for everyone. This makes my problems seem inferior to those around me, or those dying in Iraq who knows. But still, keeping everything inside is what makes me turn into a cranky bitch, which I hate. No one understands how much it hurts me to hurt others. And I know I am when I turn into a bitch, and I despise that feeling. I just wanna be the nice, sweet, caring, naive Mal that I always have been. It also seems that whenever I do try to talk about things all I get is "Everyone has problems ya know." or "Do you think ur the only one with problems." either that or I just get ignored, or they talk about their own problems without acknowledging that I even spoke. I guess that would fall under ignoring.
I'm sick of talking about my problems, whether it be in here or in person, everyone has got problems but it seems that right now, at this exact moment, everything is shitty for everyone. This makes my problems seem inferior to those around me, or those dying in Iraq who knows. But still, keeping everything inside is what makes me turn into a cranky bitch, which I hate. No one understands how much it hurts me to hurt others. And I know I am when I turn into a bitch, and I despise that feeling. I just wanna be the nice, sweet, caring, naive Mal that I always have been. It also seems that whenever I do try to talk about things all I get is "Everyone has problems ya know." or "Do you think ur the only one with problems." either that or I just get ignored, or they talk about their own problems without acknowledging that I even spoke. I guess that would fall under ignoring.