deep breath.
it has been a while.
I know.
sometimes I vow to get into the swing of things, just to purge whatever is going on on my brain and maybe that will just help me fall asleep better.
things at work suck.
certifiably sucky.
sure, I have the responsibilities, but I have NO power to get things done. so I'm constantly between the RA's I schedule/run payroll for and the HO who can print checks, etc.
so its the weekend before Christmas and I have 3 RA's who need some sort of check from the HO and all the emails and phone calls from Thursday weren't answered, but the football pool spreadsheet was sent. WHAT THE HELL, it's fine, I'll be sick to my stomach, having to face the RA's etc. don't fret or worry about it, be concerned about football etc...we'll just trudge along.
i really just want to shut the door to my office, not answer the phone and wrap up stuff in here so when i get my (insert witty segway here...)NEW job.....
HA! new job...i have 2 interviews lined up for the 27th and the 3rd.
i AM going back to preschool.
i WILL be working for a company that appreciates all the crap i do.
i WILL be doing something that i love.
i WILL reclaim my work life balance.
i WILL have my own time post work, without worrying about 5am phone calls.
thanks to
as2 -lama, I was subjected to the secret, and while concept is very info-mercially, it must have some roots, I mean I remember my new age mom always "visualizing" parking spots in crowded locations and being successful 9 times out of 10 when she pictured her spot where it would be. I have a hard time seeing the universe as being against me, the whole idea of grass doesn't struggle to grow, it simply does, I like that image, cheesy or not. So the secret has certainly acted as a litmus test to challenge my thoughts...when I feel them slipping into oblivion and into that pit of worry and anxiety, i picture my happy place, and happy times, and believe it or not, I feel better.
last night I had a great time meeting
as2 's mom, playing yahtzee, indulging in martha-like soup and cookie creations, basically an overall good time.
however, work as it currently stands is so NOT my happy place.
I'm going to put my nose to the grind stone and get through the weekend. 2 days off for Christmas and then an interview on Thursday.
2008 will be awesome.
2007 is ending on a good note, sure work sucks, but without it, I wouldn't have met
as2 and that would just be a shame.
I ended a relationship that should have been ended years prior.
I moved back to a reasonable commute, closer to the people I care about.
I reconnected with some old friends.
I tackled a new job that solidified my desire to go back to preschool.
I know.
sometimes I vow to get into the swing of things, just to purge whatever is going on on my brain and maybe that will just help me fall asleep better.
things at work suck.
certifiably sucky.
sure, I have the responsibilities, but I have NO power to get things done. so I'm constantly between the RA's I schedule/run payroll for and the HO who can print checks, etc.
so its the weekend before Christmas and I have 3 RA's who need some sort of check from the HO and all the emails and phone calls from Thursday weren't answered, but the football pool spreadsheet was sent. WHAT THE HELL, it's fine, I'll be sick to my stomach, having to face the RA's etc. don't fret or worry about it, be concerned about football etc...we'll just trudge along.
i really just want to shut the door to my office, not answer the phone and wrap up stuff in here so when i get my (insert witty segway here...)NEW job.....
HA! new job...i have 2 interviews lined up for the 27th and the 3rd.
i AM going back to preschool.
i WILL be working for a company that appreciates all the crap i do.
i WILL be doing something that i love.
i WILL reclaim my work life balance.
i WILL have my own time post work, without worrying about 5am phone calls.
thanks to
as2 -lama, I was subjected to the secret, and while concept is very info-mercially, it must have some roots, I mean I remember my new age mom always "visualizing" parking spots in crowded locations and being successful 9 times out of 10 when she pictured her spot where it would be. I have a hard time seeing the universe as being against me, the whole idea of grass doesn't struggle to grow, it simply does, I like that image, cheesy or not. So the secret has certainly acted as a litmus test to challenge my thoughts...when I feel them slipping into oblivion and into that pit of worry and anxiety, i picture my happy place, and happy times, and believe it or not, I feel better.
last night I had a great time meeting
as2 's mom, playing yahtzee, indulging in martha-like soup and cookie creations, basically an overall good time.
however, work as it currently stands is so NOT my happy place.
I'm going to put my nose to the grind stone and get through the weekend. 2 days off for Christmas and then an interview on Thursday.
2008 will be awesome.
2007 is ending on a good note, sure work sucks, but without it, I wouldn't have met
as2 and that would just be a shame.
I ended a relationship that should have been ended years prior.
I moved back to a reasonable commute, closer to the people I care about.
I reconnected with some old friends.
I tackled a new job that solidified my desire to go back to preschool.