I Can Soar
Title: I Can Soar
Author: giveitupjessica
Pairing: broken!jongkey, broken!2min, minkey, jongtae
Rating: PG-15
Wordcount: 1, 358
Prompt: Picture Prompt
Disclaimer: I sadly only own my imagination. SM owns SHINee… Sad Panda.
Summary: All he had to do was say those words and my whole world came crumbling down on me. I was broken with no intentions of getting fixed. I wanted to remain broken because if I didn't have him, what was the point? But you were there for me, never saying a word. And just knowing you were beside me was enough. You became the light at the end of the dark tunnel. (I seriously suck at summaries)
A/N: So this is my entry for shawol_haven fifth prompt. Please vote for my fic when voting begins. This is my first broken!2min/minkey story. Sorry to all my loyal readers who are 2min shippers. I still ship them and they will always be my OTP, but I wanted to try something different.
It’s been a few months since Jonghyun broke up with me and since Minho and Taemin broke up. They ended up talking for the whole night after I had fallen asleep. Their break up was mutual. No ugly words or accusations were exchanged. No fingers were pointed. They just decided that things were over between them. What had Minho said about it? Oh yeah, he said that every relationship has an expiration date. They just so happened to reach theirs, it was no big deal. It was great while it lasted and he would always treasure the memories they made together and a part of his heart will always belong to Taemin. He just didn’t own his whole heart anymore.
I wish I could say it was that easy for me. But it wasn’t. To say I was a wreck would be putting it lightly. I was heavily broken and completely lost. I didn’t want to talk to anyone. I couldn’t bare to be in the same room as Jonghyun or Taemin. I would lock myself in my room the moment we got home from our schedules, never coming out until it was time to leave the next day. I wouldn’t let anyone in the room either, especially after Jonghyun moved his stuff out and into Taemin’s room instead. They were dating now, I knew they were even though they tried not to show any signs of it in front of me. But I knew. Just because I was locked in my room, didn’t mean I couldn’t hear what was going on in the rest of the house. It didn’t mean I couldn’t make out the faint moans of pleasure coming from their room late at night. And I felt like I died every time I was reminded of that fact. Why couldn’t it have been me?
However, there was one ray of hope for me. That small light at the end of the dark tunnel. My silver lining in a cloud so dark and full of water, just waiting to pour it’s contents on an unsuspecting terrain. And that was Minho. He was there for me through it all. Never leaving my side. He was the only one I allowed in my room. He brought me food and made sure I had whatever I needed. Never once did he tell me that it was time to pick up the pieces. Never once did he tell me to move on. Never once did he tell me that Jonghyun didn’t deserve my love. He was just always there and that’s all I needed. I just needed someone to be there for me when I felt like no one was.
“Where are we going Minho?” I ask as he drags me through the city. We had just finished our last schedule and he had told the van to go on without us. That we’d meet them at the dorm later.
“You’ll see,” he says and gives me a warm smile. We end up at an amusement park. It’s pretty much deserted since it’s almost dark and it’s kind of chilly out.
“What are we doing here?” I ask and he just turns and gives me that warm smile again. Grabbing my hand once more as we begin to make our way around the park.
“You’ll see,” is all he says. We end up in front of biggest roller coaster I’ve seen in my life. He let’s go of my hand and stares up at it.
“No way Choi Minho! If you think I’m getting on that thing, you have another thing coming! NO FUCKING WAY!”
“Trust me Kibum-ah,” he grabs my hand before I can make a run for it and we start to weave through the barriers that were set up to maintain a steady and organized line. Only we were the only people in line.
“I’m not getting in it,” I say to him as I cross my arms in front of my chest. We’re standing in front of the carts and I’m refusing to get in it.
“Kibum-ah,” he says, grabbing both of my hands in his. He looks at me that warm smile never leaving his face, “Do you trust me?”
“What?”
“Do you trust me?”
“Of course I trust you.”
“Then get in that cart. I promise nothing will happen.”
“Why do I need to do this again?”
“Because you need this. So just trust me and get in,” I let out a sigh and get into the cart. He quickly takes a seat beside me and the ride attendant pulls down the safety bar. Before I can change my mind we’re moving. He grabs hold of my hand and gives me that smile again. I try to smile back, but find that I’m pretty much frozen in my seat.
I close my eyes tightly when we start to inch our way up to the first drop, which of course is the biggest drop of the ride. Why did I let him talk me into this? Wait, he didn’t have to talk me into it, I pretty much just went right along with it. I’m so stupid. Is it too late to tell them to stop the ride?
“Listen to me Kibum-ah,” his voice enters my thoughts, “You don’t need to talk. Just listen. When we reach the top and start to go down, I want you to scream. I want you to scream your lungs out. Let out every last bit of anger, frustration, hurt, pain, every emotion you have regarding your relationship with Jonghyun hyung. Let it all out okay?”
I nod my head to let him know I heard him. My grip on his hand tightens as I wait for the fall. His thumbs rubs over my knuckles and I find myself relaxing a bit. I slowly open my eyes and stare at him. The sun setting behind him, highlighting his warm smile beautifully and I forget where we are for a second.
“You ready?” he asks and my eyes widen as I look forward, just to suddenly be staring straight at the ground. I start to scream my lungs out. My hand cutting off all the circulation to Minho’s but he doesn’t care. I continue to scream and shut my eyes tightly, the wind blowing the tears I didn’t know were falling right off my face. But then it’s all over just as soon as it started. We’re back to where we began the ride.
I look over at Minho and his hand is still wrapped around mine. I step out of the cart once the safety bar is lifted. I try to give him a dirty look to let him know just how much I hate him, but I can’t.
“Feeling better?” he asks me as we walk to the exit.
“No. You’re a jerk. You know I hate heights and you bring me to one of the biggest roller coasters I’ve ever seen,” I move my hand up to wipe away the tears I knew had fallen from my face during the ride. Only to touch dry skin. All signs of my crying gone without a trace.
“You sure?”
And I don’t now how to answer that. Because for the first time since the break-up, I feel like I’m going to be okay. For the first time I feel hope again. For the first time I feel like I’m getting closer to that light at the end of the tunnel. All thanks to Minho.
It’s time for me to lock away my heart so it can’t hurt me anymore. And maybe, just maybe someone will find the key to it one day. And I will be free to love that person and they will love me back. The way I deserve to be loved. And maybe, just maybe that person will be you, Choi Minho.
Wait for me Minho. Please, just be patient with me and wait. Do the one thing that Jonghyun wasn’t willing to do… Wait…
A/N: Extended version for this oneshot! located here
Author: giveitupjessica
Pairing: broken!jongkey, broken!2min, minkey, jongtae
Rating: PG-15
Wordcount: 1, 358
Prompt: Picture Prompt
Disclaimer: I sadly only own my imagination. SM owns SHINee… Sad Panda.
Summary: All he had to do was say those words and my whole world came crumbling down on me. I was broken with no intentions of getting fixed. I wanted to remain broken because if I didn't have him, what was the point? But you were there for me, never saying a word. And just knowing you were beside me was enough. You became the light at the end of the dark tunnel. (I seriously suck at summaries)
A/N: So this is my entry for shawol_haven fifth prompt. Please vote for my fic when voting begins. This is my first broken!2min/minkey story. Sorry to all my loyal readers who are 2min shippers. I still ship them and they will always be my OTP, but I wanted to try something different.
It’s been a few months since Jonghyun broke up with me and since Minho and Taemin broke up. They ended up talking for the whole night after I had fallen asleep. Their break up was mutual. No ugly words or accusations were exchanged. No fingers were pointed. They just decided that things were over between them. What had Minho said about it? Oh yeah, he said that every relationship has an expiration date. They just so happened to reach theirs, it was no big deal. It was great while it lasted and he would always treasure the memories they made together and a part of his heart will always belong to Taemin. He just didn’t own his whole heart anymore.
I wish I could say it was that easy for me. But it wasn’t. To say I was a wreck would be putting it lightly. I was heavily broken and completely lost. I didn’t want to talk to anyone. I couldn’t bare to be in the same room as Jonghyun or Taemin. I would lock myself in my room the moment we got home from our schedules, never coming out until it was time to leave the next day. I wouldn’t let anyone in the room either, especially after Jonghyun moved his stuff out and into Taemin’s room instead. They were dating now, I knew they were even though they tried not to show any signs of it in front of me. But I knew. Just because I was locked in my room, didn’t mean I couldn’t hear what was going on in the rest of the house. It didn’t mean I couldn’t make out the faint moans of pleasure coming from their room late at night. And I felt like I died every time I was reminded of that fact. Why couldn’t it have been me?
However, there was one ray of hope for me. That small light at the end of the dark tunnel. My silver lining in a cloud so dark and full of water, just waiting to pour it’s contents on an unsuspecting terrain. And that was Minho. He was there for me through it all. Never leaving my side. He was the only one I allowed in my room. He brought me food and made sure I had whatever I needed. Never once did he tell me that it was time to pick up the pieces. Never once did he tell me to move on. Never once did he tell me that Jonghyun didn’t deserve my love. He was just always there and that’s all I needed. I just needed someone to be there for me when I felt like no one was.
“Where are we going Minho?” I ask as he drags me through the city. We had just finished our last schedule and he had told the van to go on without us. That we’d meet them at the dorm later.
“You’ll see,” he says and gives me a warm smile. We end up at an amusement park. It’s pretty much deserted since it’s almost dark and it’s kind of chilly out.
“What are we doing here?” I ask and he just turns and gives me that warm smile again. Grabbing my hand once more as we begin to make our way around the park.
“You’ll see,” is all he says. We end up in front of biggest roller coaster I’ve seen in my life. He let’s go of my hand and stares up at it.
“No way Choi Minho! If you think I’m getting on that thing, you have another thing coming! NO FUCKING WAY!”
“Trust me Kibum-ah,” he grabs my hand before I can make a run for it and we start to weave through the barriers that were set up to maintain a steady and organized line. Only we were the only people in line.
“I’m not getting in it,” I say to him as I cross my arms in front of my chest. We’re standing in front of the carts and I’m refusing to get in it.
“Kibum-ah,” he says, grabbing both of my hands in his. He looks at me that warm smile never leaving his face, “Do you trust me?”
“What?”
“Do you trust me?”
“Of course I trust you.”
“Then get in that cart. I promise nothing will happen.”
“Why do I need to do this again?”
“Because you need this. So just trust me and get in,” I let out a sigh and get into the cart. He quickly takes a seat beside me and the ride attendant pulls down the safety bar. Before I can change my mind we’re moving. He grabs hold of my hand and gives me that smile again. I try to smile back, but find that I’m pretty much frozen in my seat.
I close my eyes tightly when we start to inch our way up to the first drop, which of course is the biggest drop of the ride. Why did I let him talk me into this? Wait, he didn’t have to talk me into it, I pretty much just went right along with it. I’m so stupid. Is it too late to tell them to stop the ride?
“Listen to me Kibum-ah,” his voice enters my thoughts, “You don’t need to talk. Just listen. When we reach the top and start to go down, I want you to scream. I want you to scream your lungs out. Let out every last bit of anger, frustration, hurt, pain, every emotion you have regarding your relationship with Jonghyun hyung. Let it all out okay?”
I nod my head to let him know I heard him. My grip on his hand tightens as I wait for the fall. His thumbs rubs over my knuckles and I find myself relaxing a bit. I slowly open my eyes and stare at him. The sun setting behind him, highlighting his warm smile beautifully and I forget where we are for a second.
“You ready?” he asks and my eyes widen as I look forward, just to suddenly be staring straight at the ground. I start to scream my lungs out. My hand cutting off all the circulation to Minho’s but he doesn’t care. I continue to scream and shut my eyes tightly, the wind blowing the tears I didn’t know were falling right off my face. But then it’s all over just as soon as it started. We’re back to where we began the ride.
I look over at Minho and his hand is still wrapped around mine. I step out of the cart once the safety bar is lifted. I try to give him a dirty look to let him know just how much I hate him, but I can’t.
“Feeling better?” he asks me as we walk to the exit.
“No. You’re a jerk. You know I hate heights and you bring me to one of the biggest roller coasters I’ve ever seen,” I move my hand up to wipe away the tears I knew had fallen from my face during the ride. Only to touch dry skin. All signs of my crying gone without a trace.
“You sure?”
And I don’t now how to answer that. Because for the first time since the break-up, I feel like I’m going to be okay. For the first time I feel hope again. For the first time I feel like I’m getting closer to that light at the end of the tunnel. All thanks to Minho.
It’s time for me to lock away my heart so it can’t hurt me anymore. And maybe, just maybe someone will find the key to it one day. And I will be free to love that person and they will love me back. The way I deserve to be loved. And maybe, just maybe that person will be you, Choi Minho.
Wait for me Minho. Please, just be patient with me and wait. Do the one thing that Jonghyun wasn’t willing to do… Wait…
A/N: Extended version for this oneshot! located here