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so my best friend that was getting married....got married on saturday. i wasn't in the wedding. and to be honest i didn't want to have to buy a dress and stand up there and walk down with his friends. so for that aspect i'm glad i wasn't in it. but at the same time it sucks she didn't even ask. or have the balls to tell me why she apparently "couldn't" put me in the wedding. instead i had to hear it from sean. he said she promised she was gonna tell me, she never did. then she told him she would write me a letter to tell me, she never did. writing a letter is pretty a half-ass way of telling me anyways. i didn't go to her bridal shower, i was in a way too hurt. especially since at that point i knew what she was supposed to tell me, and was just waiting for her to tell me. i didn't want to deal with the fact she put in one girl she's known for a year, and one girl who doesn't even like her husband. apparently putting both of them in was a favor to brad and a favor to her mom. anyways the wedding was the most awkward situation i think i have ever been in. she told me thanks for coming as if i was some estranged friend who made a real effort to go to the wedding. last time i checked she has no room for being hurt that i didn't go to the shower, she's the one that blew me off. she's avoided me the last 5 months, which i'm sure was to get out of telling me. i would have completely understood if she would have just explained it to me. makes me feel like my friendship with her was a complete waste. like i thought more highly of it then her. all in all i'm glad she's happy, but sad to have lost a friend. seem like this is one of those events that stunts the friendship from ever growing more. i'm anxious to see when or if she will ever tell me what went on, and why she didn't tell me. it's just a shame we said we would have each other in our weddings just last year...