Is this really happening?
Its amazing how you can feel so on top of the world one moment, and like the lowest person ever the next.
I want every thing that I used to have. Happiness, and loving boyfriend, a hardcore group of friends I know wouldn't leave my side, like dance was really looking up, and just...everything.
I'm..not..happy..anymore..ever. You might be thinking in your heads, "Oh but you were smiling and laughing like nothing was wrong today!" Well, ever heard of being totally different on the outside and feeling the complete opposite on the inside? I don't know..I'm not going to mope around 24/7.
Everything was so perfect when I was with him. I just think back on the memories and want to scream..knowing I'll never have that again.
And I know, "There's other fish in the sea" but who cares? Like Andrew said about Katie a while back, he was a special fish. And that special fish made me feel..awesome. Completely awesome. Truly happy.
I don't know. I JUST DON'T KNOW..
Lets face it, I've faced it, things change. And not always for the better. DEFINETELY not always for the better. Friends come, friends go. Mine will always be there..but maybe they just aren't the same.
EVERYTHING is just so screwed up right now. I don't know what to do.
I want to be one of those people who just wake up and are satisfied. No worries, oh everything is alright. Who cares?
I care too much.
Dance I'm and outcast, school I'm an outcast, life I'm an outcast.
But I thank those people who really care and make me feel better (Alison, Liss, Cay) I don't know what I would do without you guys...
Crying every night is like a daily routine. AND I HATE IT.. But you can't help it. I can't.
:(
Er.
I want every thing that I used to have. Happiness, and loving boyfriend, a hardcore group of friends I know wouldn't leave my side, like dance was really looking up, and just...everything.
I'm..not..happy..anymore..ever. You might be thinking in your heads, "Oh but you were smiling and laughing like nothing was wrong today!" Well, ever heard of being totally different on the outside and feeling the complete opposite on the inside? I don't know..I'm not going to mope around 24/7.
Everything was so perfect when I was with him. I just think back on the memories and want to scream..knowing I'll never have that again.
And I know, "There's other fish in the sea" but who cares? Like Andrew said about Katie a while back, he was a special fish. And that special fish made me feel..awesome. Completely awesome. Truly happy.
I don't know. I JUST DON'T KNOW..
Lets face it, I've faced it, things change. And not always for the better. DEFINETELY not always for the better. Friends come, friends go. Mine will always be there..but maybe they just aren't the same.
EVERYTHING is just so screwed up right now. I don't know what to do.
I want to be one of those people who just wake up and are satisfied. No worries, oh everything is alright. Who cares?
I care too much.
Dance I'm and outcast, school I'm an outcast, life I'm an outcast.
But I thank those people who really care and make me feel better (Alison, Liss, Cay) I don't know what I would do without you guys...
Crying every night is like a daily routine. AND I HATE IT.. But you can't help it. I can't.
:(
Er.