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[give_all_i_can]

Don't be such a pussy.

Why can't I just say what is on my mind?

What can go wrong? Oh, believe me plenty.

Nothingismadeeasyforme. Nothingisjusthandedtome. Nothingissugarcoated. Itisalwaysbluntandstraightforward.

WHY?

I am left in the dark because I am always to afraid to ask.

It sits in my head and rots.

I think too much.

I want all the answers to everything.

I hate it when all the right words are on the tip of my tongue.

I freeze.

I wait.

Nothing happens.

I wait more.

Confusion and panic set in.

I'm not good with words and you are.

That kills me.

So free and understanding.

I am so eager to learn right now.

What is happening to me?

Can you tell me?
Guide me.

Hold my hand and protect me.

I am weak. Take mercy on me. My eyes are weary. But I have never felt so awake.

So I sit here and type trying to make some sense out of something.

False hope.

Blank stares.

No goodbyes.

It hurts.

Something so little can't hurt this much.

Comfort. Inanimate objects. Cold and unfeeling. Perfect.

My chest is gettting heavy just thinking.

This is a burden. Something to add to my problems.

Just give up.