lately...
lately nothing much has been going on....I can go to the gym now....!!!and I can hopefully run at the beginning of May!!!!!!!!!!!!!that will be so good, because then I can go down on the trach during 6th period and run.
I have a doctors appointment on Monday.and I am verrrrry nervous for it.I hope the doctor is happy with what Ive been doing..because I am working SOOO hard...and it makes me mad when they dont realize it, and that the reason why it is taking me longer to regain all my muscle is because THEY put me in a brace for 3 MONTHS before the surgery, and didnt put me in physical therapy before the surgery to keep my muscle like they could have...that is what taylor is doing(she tore hers:() and she is improving so much already...and I am worried that I am going to get passed up by her and that will not be good because then I will feel like I must be doing something wrong, and that will not be good.I dont think I would be able to handle that.tay if your reading this I LOVE YOU AND I AM HAPPY FOR YOU, im just mad i didnt get the same oppurtunity as you
last time i went to the doctor they threatened putting me under the knife again, which really freaked me out.i cried.i hate that intern that told me that and was hounding on me.i hope i never see her face again.okay so to tell if i could straighten my knee all the way she had me sit on the little mat thing and kick my leg out, and shes like ohhhh sdarah thats reallly bad...you are really far off.when that has nothing at all to do with if i can straighten my leg.that has to do with muscle in your quad.which i am still lacking.so if its that same girl and she asks me to do that i might just blow up at her.i wouldnt be able to help it.this is already sooo stressful and it already sucks sooo much and i dont need her making it worse for me by doing the wrong excercises.and its their fault i didnt have muscle going in to the surgery because they didnt put me in therapy like they should have.i just hope i am back for high school.i love playing high school.and it helps when they are all so supportive of me.i love my triangle forever, i dont know what i will do without you guys when you graduate...:( and tomorrow i am going to watch my club team play in nationals...which will be interesting.i hate watching.i wish i could play.
i really dont want to go to the doctors...they scare me...i hate that place and i hope i never have to go back again after this whole freakin thing....
BUT HEY, EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON RIGHT???
thats bull shit
I have a doctors appointment on Monday.and I am verrrrry nervous for it.I hope the doctor is happy with what Ive been doing..because I am working SOOO hard...and it makes me mad when they dont realize it, and that the reason why it is taking me longer to regain all my muscle is because THEY put me in a brace for 3 MONTHS before the surgery, and didnt put me in physical therapy before the surgery to keep my muscle like they could have...that is what taylor is doing(she tore hers:() and she is improving so much already...and I am worried that I am going to get passed up by her and that will not be good because then I will feel like I must be doing something wrong, and that will not be good.I dont think I would be able to handle that.tay if your reading this I LOVE YOU AND I AM HAPPY FOR YOU, im just mad i didnt get the same oppurtunity as you
last time i went to the doctor they threatened putting me under the knife again, which really freaked me out.i cried.i hate that intern that told me that and was hounding on me.i hope i never see her face again.okay so to tell if i could straighten my knee all the way she had me sit on the little mat thing and kick my leg out, and shes like ohhhh sdarah thats reallly bad...you are really far off.when that has nothing at all to do with if i can straighten my leg.that has to do with muscle in your quad.which i am still lacking.so if its that same girl and she asks me to do that i might just blow up at her.i wouldnt be able to help it.this is already sooo stressful and it already sucks sooo much and i dont need her making it worse for me by doing the wrong excercises.and its their fault i didnt have muscle going in to the surgery because they didnt put me in therapy like they should have.i just hope i am back for high school.i love playing high school.and it helps when they are all so supportive of me.i love my triangle forever, i dont know what i will do without you guys when you graduate...:( and tomorrow i am going to watch my club team play in nationals...which will be interesting.i hate watching.i wish i could play.
i really dont want to go to the doctors...they scare me...i hate that place and i hope i never have to go back again after this whole freakin thing....
BUT HEY, EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON RIGHT???
thats bull shit