SAMHAIN II: "I will to will thy will."
The reading was amazing. I wanted a general reading, not one to answer a specific question.
The first rune reading about my birth & childhood in this lifetime brought to mind and connected me to struggles I still have between who I am and the societal and early religious conditioning and roles I have accepted, that still hamstring me from my full identity.
The next rune was a reading about my present time in this life. This rune symbolizes change, liberation, invention. It indicates a pressing need for me to break free from constricting identification of this material reality and experience the world with an archetypal mind. Big words. :P To me, it means that this is a period of coming to my senses, and the disruptions (health, the apt. people, economy, etc.) are my aids. The covers, self-blinders?, are to be ripped from my inner eyes. Things that have supported me (like my body) are taken away so as to point me inward, to the inner world of my own spirit. Catalysts to make me see the big picture. With the changes I have recently made, such as my talisman pouch to rally my own inner forces, and my daily t'ai chi practice, which my painful body reminded me of, I see some of the change and movement toward liberation already happening.
The rune for the future in this lifetime indicates the ending of a journey, that perhaps this struggle to be my full self will be accomplished. That I can let go of obstructions that come through people, places, things, circumstances. To move toward self-healing, change and union with the divine. Learn to be able to stand apart, in strength, let go of "things." A soul's journey is essentially and always, alone. Yet I am not to rely on my own power; there is the Goddess and the God, the power of the Universe itself that I am a part of. The end is in sight for me where I can leave these struggles behind and finally move forward to being whole. "I will to will thy will." An acceptance of the Goddess and God's lessons, and losing the fear and lack of confidence and mental conditioning that blocks me. Letting go of my fetters and tethers. In a way, I think this reading points toward my death. Yet another kind of death, to the hamstringing of my spirit, is also indicated. I have broken through with Spirit in dealing with obstructions that are coming to me at this time, learning that I MUST include Spirit in all that I do, decide, battle against. But it's more than that; much more. This is the Crone time of this my life, as I leave Maiden and Mother portions behind, and ready to leave this lifetime, and prepare those I love, for my going. It is a time of summing up, of awakening to the full lessons of my life experiences, to draw some conclusions perhaps, and to prepare for closure of this life. And to ready myself for the next incarnation, armoring me with wisdom gained.
The rune about my immediate past life shows that similar struggles for my spirit/soul to fully develop. It was a time to stick with the work and the struggle, to keep going. To learn not to create my own suffering because of how I see things, and also to let go of past sufferings with closure and moving forward. That work is very much carried over into this current lifetime. I have been on a seeker's spiritual journey as far back as I can remember. From being drawn to silence and solitude even as a young child, to shedding my childhood religion, and moving forward in search of a path that fully guided me. I sense that this seeking was something I was born with, a need and a purpose to carry on in this life. It is the only way I can explain all the people and books and experiences that have found me in apparently "accidental" ways, that have had a profound effect on my journey and spirit. A way of living in awareness.
The next future incarnation rune indicates that I will be free of the current and previous lifetime's struggles toward soul/spirit identity. Instead there will be a new path and it will be a time of clarification, and an acceptance that all things change. To allow myself to finally and truely emerge. There will be release from tension and cultural/behavior patterns that have hampered me. There is danger and yet the release will bring delivery from danger. Perhaps the risk of remaining a sleepwalker in my life? Of denying my true identity? Of losing myself? I will be able to center and ground and remove myself from bad influences. I will be able to harmonize and share and look for similarities. It will be an intuitive way of living, from the INSIDE rather than the outside, and of trusting my inner direction and voice. A way of living in awareness.
It was more the continuity throughout the reading's areas that struck me. It all fit together and there was affirmation within me, a recognition of the "big picture." A way of putting my struggles in this life, my ways of meeting those struggles, all into a perspective of who I am as spirit. I felt better than I have, being caught in the minutiae of daily life and health struggles, and struggles with the apt. people next door. I was blinding myself to the full picture, and suffering because of it. I have not been living from the INSIDE.
Readings are but the shadows coming from me in a particular moment of time. Actions I may or may not take, paths I may choose or not choose, choosing awareness or to return to sleep, all can change everything. The truest "message" to me is to SEE with my inner eyes and understand from a spiritual perspective. And only then, ACT. To remember this world is more than it seems, but not all that there is. ;)
"I will to will thy will."
Thank you, my Goddess Mother, for sending me DD in this lifetime! She brought me to You. She is my greatest blessing.
The first rune reading about my birth & childhood in this lifetime brought to mind and connected me to struggles I still have between who I am and the societal and early religious conditioning and roles I have accepted, that still hamstring me from my full identity.
The next rune was a reading about my present time in this life. This rune symbolizes change, liberation, invention. It indicates a pressing need for me to break free from constricting identification of this material reality and experience the world with an archetypal mind. Big words. :P To me, it means that this is a period of coming to my senses, and the disruptions (health, the apt. people, economy, etc.) are my aids. The covers, self-blinders?, are to be ripped from my inner eyes. Things that have supported me (like my body) are taken away so as to point me inward, to the inner world of my own spirit. Catalysts to make me see the big picture. With the changes I have recently made, such as my talisman pouch to rally my own inner forces, and my daily t'ai chi practice, which my painful body reminded me of, I see some of the change and movement toward liberation already happening.
The rune for the future in this lifetime indicates the ending of a journey, that perhaps this struggle to be my full self will be accomplished. That I can let go of obstructions that come through people, places, things, circumstances. To move toward self-healing, change and union with the divine. Learn to be able to stand apart, in strength, let go of "things." A soul's journey is essentially and always, alone. Yet I am not to rely on my own power; there is the Goddess and the God, the power of the Universe itself that I am a part of. The end is in sight for me where I can leave these struggles behind and finally move forward to being whole. "I will to will thy will." An acceptance of the Goddess and God's lessons, and losing the fear and lack of confidence and mental conditioning that blocks me. Letting go of my fetters and tethers. In a way, I think this reading points toward my death. Yet another kind of death, to the hamstringing of my spirit, is also indicated. I have broken through with Spirit in dealing with obstructions that are coming to me at this time, learning that I MUST include Spirit in all that I do, decide, battle against. But it's more than that; much more. This is the Crone time of this my life, as I leave Maiden and Mother portions behind, and ready to leave this lifetime, and prepare those I love, for my going. It is a time of summing up, of awakening to the full lessons of my life experiences, to draw some conclusions perhaps, and to prepare for closure of this life. And to ready myself for the next incarnation, armoring me with wisdom gained.
The rune about my immediate past life shows that similar struggles for my spirit/soul to fully develop. It was a time to stick with the work and the struggle, to keep going. To learn not to create my own suffering because of how I see things, and also to let go of past sufferings with closure and moving forward. That work is very much carried over into this current lifetime. I have been on a seeker's spiritual journey as far back as I can remember. From being drawn to silence and solitude even as a young child, to shedding my childhood religion, and moving forward in search of a path that fully guided me. I sense that this seeking was something I was born with, a need and a purpose to carry on in this life. It is the only way I can explain all the people and books and experiences that have found me in apparently "accidental" ways, that have had a profound effect on my journey and spirit. A way of living in awareness.
The next future incarnation rune indicates that I will be free of the current and previous lifetime's struggles toward soul/spirit identity. Instead there will be a new path and it will be a time of clarification, and an acceptance that all things change. To allow myself to finally and truely emerge. There will be release from tension and cultural/behavior patterns that have hampered me. There is danger and yet the release will bring delivery from danger. Perhaps the risk of remaining a sleepwalker in my life? Of denying my true identity? Of losing myself? I will be able to center and ground and remove myself from bad influences. I will be able to harmonize and share and look for similarities. It will be an intuitive way of living, from the INSIDE rather than the outside, and of trusting my inner direction and voice. A way of living in awareness.
It was more the continuity throughout the reading's areas that struck me. It all fit together and there was affirmation within me, a recognition of the "big picture." A way of putting my struggles in this life, my ways of meeting those struggles, all into a perspective of who I am as spirit. I felt better than I have, being caught in the minutiae of daily life and health struggles, and struggles with the apt. people next door. I was blinding myself to the full picture, and suffering because of it. I have not been living from the INSIDE.
Readings are but the shadows coming from me in a particular moment of time. Actions I may or may not take, paths I may choose or not choose, choosing awareness or to return to sleep, all can change everything. The truest "message" to me is to SEE with my inner eyes and understand from a spiritual perspective. And only then, ACT. To remember this world is more than it seems, but not all that there is. ;)
"I will to will thy will."
Thank you, my Goddess Mother, for sending me DD in this lifetime! She brought me to You. She is my greatest blessing.