horrible.
yes i am. or people think i am. or what they get out of me is that, horrible.
I was just lectured. I feel like crap. I'm everything i dont want to be. god i've been deforming into a monster. Like i said, people said i've changed, well what else am i suppose to do? I'm letting everything take me for granted, especially him. I cant remember the last time i was really actully happy. It seems as everything i had wanted before has it's own twists, that im not able to handle.
side effects:
I dont do any homework
Grades are really slipping
I can't focas on anything, i cant even read anymore
i have no escape, i always need someone.
I just go automatically to sleep when im tired, i dont have much of a personality anymore. I've become simple minded.
A lot of lying and dishonesty, i never really wished for this to happen.
The risk of taking risks has taken over the thought and ideas.
i just have nothing now, nothing that i wanted. i know i wish i've always wanted to be different but when i actully got when i want im not so sure anymore.
I was just lectured. I feel like crap. I'm everything i dont want to be. god i've been deforming into a monster. Like i said, people said i've changed, well what else am i suppose to do? I'm letting everything take me for granted, especially him. I cant remember the last time i was really actully happy. It seems as everything i had wanted before has it's own twists, that im not able to handle.
side effects:
I dont do any homework
Grades are really slipping
I can't focas on anything, i cant even read anymore
i have no escape, i always need someone.
I just go automatically to sleep when im tired, i dont have much of a personality anymore. I've become simple minded.
A lot of lying and dishonesty, i never really wished for this to happen.
The risk of taking risks has taken over the thought and ideas.
i just have nothing now, nothing that i wanted. i know i wish i've always wanted to be different but when i actully got when i want im not so sure anymore.