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i start to find my footing.
I operate on little sleep. grow hungry. drink tea. forget to eat, a little.
cuddle my cat. look out the windows. marvel at all of the people on campus. aged 18-30.
plan out my weeks ahead. excited about projects. anxious about reading. But learning. and so energized by the process.
sleep deep and heavy.
it's a little bit of a whirlwind. but I'm starting to feel safe. my heart exploded a million times over the first week. I knew I was where I am supposed to be . right now.
trusting my hands to make the right things. trusting my brain to think in this new way.
looking deep into my heart, which feels so clear, and listening to what it says.
today it told me to skip class tomorrow so I can spend time with two little girls I'm afraid are going to start going up way too fast while I'm gone.
it told me to relax, and sleep, and plan.
the water here tastes weird after it's been sitting in a glass too long.
i boil water in a pot for copious amounts of tea, and sometimes coffee.
I turn my computer off at night to listen to the breeze and quiet car sounds and sweet buggies churp.
i am not anxious. about. home.
I like who I live with.
I feel safe.
time goes so fast..but it's all such exciting stuff. I want to do this the best way I can. I want to do blow it all out of the water
and then take a breath to watch the ripples spread outward.
i allow myself the breath. the no sleep. the time.
allow myself the excitement and the speed and the freedom to be so involved and immersed in my work.
my. work.
it's very important. all of it. and i'm in love.
I operate on little sleep. grow hungry. drink tea. forget to eat, a little.
cuddle my cat. look out the windows. marvel at all of the people on campus. aged 18-30.
plan out my weeks ahead. excited about projects. anxious about reading. But learning. and so energized by the process.
sleep deep and heavy.
it's a little bit of a whirlwind. but I'm starting to feel safe. my heart exploded a million times over the first week. I knew I was where I am supposed to be . right now.
trusting my hands to make the right things. trusting my brain to think in this new way.
looking deep into my heart, which feels so clear, and listening to what it says.
today it told me to skip class tomorrow so I can spend time with two little girls I'm afraid are going to start going up way too fast while I'm gone.
it told me to relax, and sleep, and plan.
the water here tastes weird after it's been sitting in a glass too long.
i boil water in a pot for copious amounts of tea, and sometimes coffee.
I turn my computer off at night to listen to the breeze and quiet car sounds and sweet buggies churp.
i am not anxious. about. home.
I like who I live with.
I feel safe.
time goes so fast..but it's all such exciting stuff. I want to do this the best way I can. I want to do blow it all out of the water
and then take a breath to watch the ripples spread outward.
i allow myself the breath. the no sleep. the time.
allow myself the excitement and the speed and the freedom to be so involved and immersed in my work.
my. work.
it's very important. all of it. and i'm in love.