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I wonder if it's mean of me to predict what people will be like when they are older. I don't have ridiculously high expectations of myself by any means, I don't think my journalism is going to save the world, or I will write the great american novel (though I'd like to write a decent one), or I'm going to break the story that changes the way people view their lives... but I think what I will do is going to be more exciting than the norm. I don't really plan on settling down, having a family, being a mom... It's not to say those are bad things, but they're not for me. At least, I hope they aren't. I want to get married, but I don't want the 2.5 kids and white picket fence. Yet I see people I went to high school with, friends, acquaintences, people I didn't like and who didn't like me... and a lot of them have their futures just planned out. I can see it already - become a teacher, get married, have kids, settle in a suburb, drive a van, take the kids to soccer, wear sweatpants to the supermarket, gain 40 pounds, look 50 when they're 40, get a divorce, etc. No one thinks that will happen to them but it does. Hell, maybe it'll happen to me, I don't pretend to be immune to commonalities, but I sure as hell hope it doesn't. I see people at the restaurant where I work, white trash with ugly tattoos and overprocessed hair and fake tans and clothes made for someone 15 pounds lighter and I think, I know people right now who will be just exactly like this in 20 years. Is that mean?