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im sooo upset with a lot of things going on with my life. i dont know if i told u or not but im going to anyway. i was balmic when i was 16 yrs old. now im going to be 19 next month and im back to throwing everything up i think im fat and ungly i think noone likes me i hate my life i want to die when i was balmic when i was 16 i could stop and when i wanted to eat something i could keep it down now nothing not water not food not joice nothing please i dont know what to do anymore i think i make everything myself its all bad cause im a bad person i hate myself i dont even understand why u wright me i dont have many friends but i met 2 of the best girls the other night and she has cancer i wish i had it i wish i was dieing i havn't smoked weed in like 1 month and thats the only thing that makes me happy. i just wish i would die i like ahmed soo much and eddie yelled at me to day cause none of his family but eddie was suppose to know that we were together but ahmed told me he told jenny and when she called i just told her to tell him that i miss him. eddie said that if i dont want ahmed to leave him but i want ahmed i like him its just hard cause of this month and now eddies going to tell ahmed that i quit my job please hire someone to kill me noone will miss me im ugly im not smart or a good girlfriend im not a good friend im not a good daughter i hate y life please kill me actually i think i am dieing cause i havn't keeped anything down for almost 1 month.