my favorite time to be alive
wow it's been such a long time...well so there are only 2 weeks left of my junior year. i seriously can't believe how fast the time has gone by. i'm so excited for summer, though. there's so much i want to do, so much i'm looking forward to...
anyways i'll just give some updates:
UNO: i made drill team! i made dance company too! i'm sooo excited, we've already started drill practice. 6 a.m. every single morning. it's hard, but it's worth it.
DOS: boys...are too too too confusing.
1) so this one boy, we hung out, just us two, like on a
date. we ended up cuddling and holding hands and stuff
then all of a sudden he's just started ignoring me. he
seems to suddenly hate me. and i have NO idea why...it
makes me mad, not just because i liked him, but just
because i don't think he has any right to be mad at me
or whatever. all i want is an answer; whats your
problem?
2) of course theres still my friend. he's probably my
closest guy friend ever. i've liked him for almost a
year now, but he's had his girlfriend. not that that's
prevented us from flirting, but still...well they'll
be breaking up after this school year because she's
graduating. and i mean i guess now it's almost my
"Chance"...but now my other friend likes him. and i
don't want to like but in on her liking him, because
they kinda used to have a thing, but i mean she just
barely started liking him again and i have forever. so
i dont even know. but like when we hang out i just feel
so....so complete i guess. i feel so happy even if we
are doing nothing. i just love being around him. and
things he says, or does, or ways he looks at me just
makes me want him more....
3) apparently this friend of mine likes me. last night at
like 2 in the morning we were texting and he wanted to
play the "questions game", which is where you take
turns asking and answering questions, but no repeats. i
was just asking like "whats yours favorite movie" and
stuff but all his were like "so who are you liking now"
, "what was your first impression of me", "what do you
look for in a guy", "how do you feel about dating". its
hard cuz i dont wnat to hurt the poor kid's feelings
but honestly i could never see him as more than just a
friend.
anyways i'll just give some updates:
UNO: i made drill team! i made dance company too! i'm sooo excited, we've already started drill practice. 6 a.m. every single morning. it's hard, but it's worth it.
DOS: boys...are too too too confusing.
1) so this one boy, we hung out, just us two, like on a
date. we ended up cuddling and holding hands and stuff
then all of a sudden he's just started ignoring me. he
seems to suddenly hate me. and i have NO idea why...it
makes me mad, not just because i liked him, but just
because i don't think he has any right to be mad at me
or whatever. all i want is an answer; whats your
problem?
2) of course theres still my friend. he's probably my
closest guy friend ever. i've liked him for almost a
year now, but he's had his girlfriend. not that that's
prevented us from flirting, but still...well they'll
be breaking up after this school year because she's
graduating. and i mean i guess now it's almost my
"Chance"...but now my other friend likes him. and i
don't want to like but in on her liking him, because
they kinda used to have a thing, but i mean she just
barely started liking him again and i have forever. so
i dont even know. but like when we hang out i just feel
so....so complete i guess. i feel so happy even if we
are doing nothing. i just love being around him. and
things he says, or does, or ways he looks at me just
makes me want him more....
3) apparently this friend of mine likes me. last night at
like 2 in the morning we were texting and he wanted to
play the "questions game", which is where you take
turns asking and answering questions, but no repeats. i
was just asking like "whats yours favorite movie" and
stuff but all his were like "so who are you liking now"
, "what was your first impression of me", "what do you
look for in a guy", "how do you feel about dating". its
hard cuz i dont wnat to hurt the poor kid's feelings
but honestly i could never see him as more than just a
friend.