i moved
i finally moved to la. i've been talking about it for so long and now i'm here. the past couple of days have been pretty stressful and a bit sad. it was really hard to leave new york and say goodbye to my friends. kinda felt like in a movie. hahah. you know, i didn't cry until aleen and i were packing my suitcases into the cab. i threw my stuff into the backseat and all of a sudden, i was like, shit. i'm really doing this. and then aleen and i hugged and i couldn't speak. and then i laughed at us because it was such a sweet cliche moment.
it's bizarre/sad that we don't really realize our value in each other lives until that presense is taken away. very often, i take my amazing relationships for granted. and then, last night, i kept having to say good bye to all these people that are auch an important part of my everyday life. people that make my life happy and rich and fulfilled. it was hard. and then at the same time, i have to keep reminding myself that this world is always getting smaller and new york isn't that far away. and i will still see my friends.
but it's still hard. i look at aleen and can't help but think that i wouldn't be the person i am...wouldn't know God the way that I do...wouldn't be challenged...if it weren't for her. and then i look at jenn and think about how we really didn't know each other that well when i first moved to new york...and now i would die -or kill- haa for her.
i don't think i'll really be able to wrap my head around this change for quite some time. it will be a slow process. i was walking through burbank airport this afternoon and i thought, whoa. i really did it. whoa.
and at the end of the day, i am excited for this new turn in the road. for the new challenges that lie ahead of me. yes, leaving new york was extremely difficult. but growth is so good and healthy. and i know, in the deepest parts of me, that i've done the right thing. this is good for me. i am alive and recharged.
it's bizarre/sad that we don't really realize our value in each other lives until that presense is taken away. very often, i take my amazing relationships for granted. and then, last night, i kept having to say good bye to all these people that are auch an important part of my everyday life. people that make my life happy and rich and fulfilled. it was hard. and then at the same time, i have to keep reminding myself that this world is always getting smaller and new york isn't that far away. and i will still see my friends.
but it's still hard. i look at aleen and can't help but think that i wouldn't be the person i am...wouldn't know God the way that I do...wouldn't be challenged...if it weren't for her. and then i look at jenn and think about how we really didn't know each other that well when i first moved to new york...and now i would die -or kill- haa for her.
i don't think i'll really be able to wrap my head around this change for quite some time. it will be a slow process. i was walking through burbank airport this afternoon and i thought, whoa. i really did it. whoa.
and at the end of the day, i am excited for this new turn in the road. for the new challenges that lie ahead of me. yes, leaving new york was extremely difficult. but growth is so good and healthy. and i know, in the deepest parts of me, that i've done the right thing. this is good for me. i am alive and recharged.