some random thoughts
two more days till christmas and I still have no christmas spirit. I dont' know why but this year just sucks terribly. Not in the mood to do anything besides dissappear right about now. Have no where to go and no one to go with. I don't want to see people yet I don't want to be alone. Aggrivated with life, frusturated with situations out of my hands. Confused about how things should turn out and unsure of myself. Sick to my stomach for no reason at all...better not be the flu. I really miss my sister. I know she loves it down there and all...but man it would be nice if she was up here. Only a few more weeks though. Thinking to much makes me think of things that probably aren't true, that are true, and that are possible. All these things are bad. Thinking to much makes me only think of bad things. Wanna scream in peoples faces some times.