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well, this is the last blog i can for sure I'll be writing for a while, since school is over, and i don't have the internet at home....but I'm planning on moving out by July 1st, and hopefully I'll be able to scrape up enough for a laptop and internet access. but in preparation for the probable, i will write this as the last blog entry for the year.
Overall, the year has been a good one. I made a lot of new friends, learned a little about myself, and learned the fine art of letting go. I learned to accept myself, and that people aren't neccesarily lying when they call me pretty or say I'm attractive. I've learned to see myself that way.
I learned about heartbreak, about disappointment, and about sharing it with others. I learned about comforting friends, and I learned the painful truth that I can't protect my friends from heartbreak. I learned the devastation of having my hopes and dreams smashed worse than i thought. I learned what it was to lose all feeling, and seem as though I were completely numb. I learned the bitter sting of true jealousy, and I've learned the misery that it can cause. I've learned what it feels like to lie to myself, and to be untrue to myself. I've learned the hollowness of losing myself, of not knowing who i am. I've learned what it's like to feel abandoned my friends family and sense of self.
But I also learned that after pain, after emptiness and loss, after nothingness, there can be rebirth. I've learned to breathe and just enjoy living. I've learned to find peace in the quiet moments of life. I've learned to find joy in life's embrace. I've learned that after every night, eventually there is a dawn. I've learned that sometimes thigns don't happen for any predetermined reason, that they aren't neccessary to some larger plan, but that they should be enjoyed as sprinkles and cherries. I've learned that even if I put my heart on the line time after time without ever gaining requited love, I have still gained. I have gained several colors in my world of experiences, and even the darker shades add depth. I've learned that nothing is forever, but when one things dies, it stays with us, and a new is born. so we keep growing, keep adding color to our lives, and so the painting of our being and personality becomes a masterpiece, we become beautiful. I believe that deep down, every person is beautiful, even if they become bitter and hateful, we all have a unique kind of beauty inside ourselves. That is why every person is guaranteed someone who canlove them. Even if we never meet them, we can always be glad and know that they exist. But chances are, we'll find someone who can. Just so long as we don't give up living and experiencing and growing...
well, see everyone in september. Thank you for becoming a shade of my life
Overall, the year has been a good one. I made a lot of new friends, learned a little about myself, and learned the fine art of letting go. I learned to accept myself, and that people aren't neccesarily lying when they call me pretty or say I'm attractive. I've learned to see myself that way.
I learned about heartbreak, about disappointment, and about sharing it with others. I learned about comforting friends, and I learned the painful truth that I can't protect my friends from heartbreak. I learned the devastation of having my hopes and dreams smashed worse than i thought. I learned what it was to lose all feeling, and seem as though I were completely numb. I learned the bitter sting of true jealousy, and I've learned the misery that it can cause. I've learned what it feels like to lie to myself, and to be untrue to myself. I've learned the hollowness of losing myself, of not knowing who i am. I've learned what it's like to feel abandoned my friends family and sense of self.
But I also learned that after pain, after emptiness and loss, after nothingness, there can be rebirth. I've learned to breathe and just enjoy living. I've learned to find peace in the quiet moments of life. I've learned to find joy in life's embrace. I've learned that after every night, eventually there is a dawn. I've learned that sometimes thigns don't happen for any predetermined reason, that they aren't neccessary to some larger plan, but that they should be enjoyed as sprinkles and cherries. I've learned that even if I put my heart on the line time after time without ever gaining requited love, I have still gained. I have gained several colors in my world of experiences, and even the darker shades add depth. I've learned that nothing is forever, but when one things dies, it stays with us, and a new is born. so we keep growing, keep adding color to our lives, and so the painting of our being and personality becomes a masterpiece, we become beautiful. I believe that deep down, every person is beautiful, even if they become bitter and hateful, we all have a unique kind of beauty inside ourselves. That is why every person is guaranteed someone who canlove them. Even if we never meet them, we can always be glad and know that they exist. But chances are, we'll find someone who can. Just so long as we don't give up living and experiencing and growing...
well, see everyone in september. Thank you for becoming a shade of my life