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Why is life so hard? I pull my head out of the water for a moment and then I go right back in. Why? Why are other people so blessed? I love being there for people and it makes me feel better to know that we all have problems....but why does it only get better for them and Im still stuck in the same place? I hate it. I can control anything anymore and i am so upset about everthing. I feel so lost. And maybe its cause I have been slowly losing my faith in GOD. Its not that I mean to....but I just dont have time to pray (which I know I should) cuz I worrying about everything and I m trying to keep my head above the water. I went to church today and that all I was thinking about. I guess maybe I have all these problems cuz I have turned away from GOD. I dont know anymore....maybe Im just trying to find excuses for everything.i just hope this horrible black cloud will soon pass.
Steph
Steph