College.
It seems like more and more each day I begin to think about college.
I'll be graduating at this time in a year. I'm scared, but yet, I'm so happy at the same time.
It kind of feels like high school is already over for me. It's so crazy.
When I think about college, I think about how almost all my friends moved away and none of them are staying/have stayed here.
But when I think about it for myself, I always wonder what the hell I want to do for the rest of my life, and where I want to be while trying to get there. I have the options of staying here in Corpus Christi, Texas or moving. And if I'm moving, consider me long gone out of the states. I'll be in Germany as an English teacher. That's what I want to do.
But, there is only one thing holding me back from that, and it's my family. It's not that they don't want me to go because they support me making this decision. But, I'm hours and hours away, I'm miles and an ocean apart from them. I can't just get in my car and drive to their home when I need someone to talk to. I can't hug my mom every day (not like I ever do) and I can't see my dad as often as I would like. And the one thing that would hurt the most is knowing that I wouldn't be able to see my sister achieve a lot of things in high school. I wouldn't be able to go to her volleyball games, track meets, etc. and I'd miss that so much.
Maybe, I should just stop being crazy because I still have another year.