2011
2010 & revamped 11
-get the tattoo i want in replacement of piercing or vice versa...i think i'm all set with my ears and nose and navel just kidding got my left tragus done in may
-continue to be decisive, especially in regards to school and work, and relationships...must continue to communicate choices better
-declare a major however, double majoring is ruining my life, so might change depending on discussion with FA about law school and trinidad experience...success! great discussion, left with a double major and minor with reasonable direction if not fairly solid plans
-after discussion, appropriate research in decided direction
-continue to enjoy personal oxymoronic tendencies. while this has been steady, i need to shake paranoia.
-play more (harmless!!!!!! and not annoying!!!!!) tricks...still a little overbearing at times, but learning.
-continue my healthy eating and gym routine but not drop my b.m.i. below 18.5 or 122 lbs (currently 19.5-6/129 lbs)...and maintaining personal awareness of potentially compulsive behavior. i want to start being more vegan again (working in an italian restaurant didn't bode well for that lifestyle)
-watch more u.c.b.....try again
-go on a road trip and have it not fall through. seriously. fuck extenuating circumstances.
-write down music i hear and like and download it asap instead of baking out and forgetting
-help someone everyday/do something for someone i care about/put energy towards a good cause. while better, i need to do more!
-stop hanging out with people who are unsympathetic
-stop hanging out with people who fuck me over on a continued basis and i forgive for no reason...don't forgive entirely just communicate, and be aware of how myself is situated in a given event.
-make something i am very proud of....more papers and research!
-write more/read more for leisure. especially because i keep re-reading specific books and not finishing new ones. i did a lot of less "academic" writing for the short story, but need to start journaling again. also got some (new!) leisure reading done, but only like 3.5 books...5 at least for next year!
-go with my gut. while i have done this, it has resulted in a lot of impulsive choices. most of which i am happy about, but some just eat away at me. although making the list again this year, i will excersise discretion on what state my "gut" is it when it is trying to do something.
-be more observant. hm. better? barely.
-know my size and the space i occupy...i will avoid a lot of clumsy accidents doing this. i could lie, but the bruise on my shin from walking into a car two nights ago begs to differ.
-expand my already noxious vocabulary...i will continue to simultaneously proliferate and hone my written and verbal capacity to most directly deploy meaning. HA.
-don't be so judgmental. while i have largely gotten better, i find i have become very short with some people who approach me the wrong way. i need to be kinder and remember not everyone has had the same experiences that i have, and me telling someone to "fuck off no ones trying to talk you anyway" doesn't have the greatest potential to catalyze life changing discussions about power and privilege.
-break the romanticized visions i have about living and certain life styles....all but a one really. and it's cuz i haven't tried it yet. while it settles at the bottom of my stomach once and while, it doesn't fester anymore.
-stop making schedules that are over the top. that did NOT happen at all fall semester...2 jobs at 40 hours/week, 5.5 classes, extra curricular, etc. spring will be better! only one job =)
-sleep more. i'll try again this year.
-dance more
-work and make a lot of cash money dolla bills
-get and stay confident about what i have to say. this fluctuates, but being asked to speak helps. time to get out of my comfort zone
-introspection is crucial but shouldn't be so critical
-everything is a learning experience, evaluated objectively as such, et cetra
-everything will change/things fall apart (the harder parts of learning experiences)
-quit smoking. i did between september and finals, i'll try again now.
-branch out. that didn't happen, i branched in, closer to lili, MB, and baby, closer to random belmont kids.
-implement full out sex-ed program by the summer. girl's night doesn't count entirely, but a good start.
-get waitressing job of some description in worcester
-go somewhere amazing over the summer/kezar lake, went to trinidad in january so there. hopefully travelling this summer!
-reconnect with CFSers/go to the folk festival in august....again again!
-get inspired, stay inspired, actualize inspiration
-make more art
-take more random mini vacations, love VT and NY foreverr. yes, i count westford MA as a mini vacation.
-get really flexible. i'm doing bikram yoga these days and i'm pretty bendy, but i wanna do some crazy shit by next january!
-go to the UN in february and love every second of it
-better disentangle my thoughts and construct a rational proceeding course of action
-spend a while off facebook. this goal should be a three month stint at a time that it is reasonable for it to occur
-spend more time inside my body and interacting with reality then getting lost in my thought because 1) it's impossible to have a conversation without sounding like an elitist prick 2) it contributes to my over thinking things 3) i am happier
-cook more! make myself and friends five (5) amazing and complex dinners. so sick of pasta and microwave brocollli!!
-just because everything has an allegorical meaning doesn't mean everyone wants to talk about it--goes with knowing the space/size i occupy :)
-get the tattoo i want in replacement of piercing or vice versa...i think i'm all set with my ears and nose and navel just kidding got my left tragus done in may
-continue to be decisive, especially in regards to school and work, and relationships...must continue to communicate choices better
-declare a major however, double majoring is ruining my life, so might change depending on discussion with FA about law school and trinidad experience...success! great discussion, left with a double major and minor with reasonable direction if not fairly solid plans
-after discussion, appropriate research in decided direction
-continue to enjoy personal oxymoronic tendencies. while this has been steady, i need to shake paranoia.
-play more (harmless!!!!!! and not annoying!!!!!) tricks...still a little overbearing at times, but learning.
-continue my healthy eating and gym routine but not drop my b.m.i. below 18.5 or 122 lbs (currently 19.5-6/129 lbs)...and maintaining personal awareness of potentially compulsive behavior. i want to start being more vegan again (working in an italian restaurant didn't bode well for that lifestyle)
-watch more u.c.b.....try again
-go on a road trip and have it not fall through. seriously. fuck extenuating circumstances.
-write down music i hear and like and download it asap instead of baking out and forgetting
-help someone everyday/do something for someone i care about/put energy towards a good cause. while better, i need to do more!
-stop hanging out with people who are unsympathetic
-stop hanging out with people who fuck me over on a continued basis and i forgive for no reason...don't forgive entirely just communicate, and be aware of how myself is situated in a given event.
-make something i am very proud of....more papers and research!
-write more/read more for leisure. especially because i keep re-reading specific books and not finishing new ones. i did a lot of less "academic" writing for the short story, but need to start journaling again. also got some (new!) leisure reading done, but only like 3.5 books...5 at least for next year!
-go with my gut. while i have done this, it has resulted in a lot of impulsive choices. most of which i am happy about, but some just eat away at me. although making the list again this year, i will excersise discretion on what state my "gut" is it when it is trying to do something.
-be more observant. hm. better? barely.
-know my size and the space i occupy...i will avoid a lot of clumsy accidents doing this. i could lie, but the bruise on my shin from walking into a car two nights ago begs to differ.
-expand my already noxious vocabulary...i will continue to simultaneously proliferate and hone my written and verbal capacity to most directly deploy meaning. HA.
-don't be so judgmental. while i have largely gotten better, i find i have become very short with some people who approach me the wrong way. i need to be kinder and remember not everyone has had the same experiences that i have, and me telling someone to "fuck off no ones trying to talk you anyway" doesn't have the greatest potential to catalyze life changing discussions about power and privilege.
-break the romanticized visions i have about living and certain life styles....all but a one really. and it's cuz i haven't tried it yet. while it settles at the bottom of my stomach once and while, it doesn't fester anymore.
-stop making schedules that are over the top. that did NOT happen at all fall semester...2 jobs at 40 hours/week, 5.5 classes, extra curricular, etc. spring will be better! only one job =)
-sleep more. i'll try again this year.
-dance more
-work and make a lot of cash money dolla bills
-get and stay confident about what i have to say. this fluctuates, but being asked to speak helps. time to get out of my comfort zone
-introspection is crucial but shouldn't be so critical
-everything is a learning experience, evaluated objectively as such, et cetra
-everything will change/things fall apart (the harder parts of learning experiences)
-quit smoking. i did between september and finals, i'll try again now.
-branch out. that didn't happen, i branched in, closer to lili, MB, and baby, closer to random belmont kids.
-implement full out sex-ed program by the summer. girl's night doesn't count entirely, but a good start.
-get waitressing job of some description in worcester
-go somewhere amazing over the summer/kezar lake, went to trinidad in january so there. hopefully travelling this summer!
-reconnect with CFSers/go to the folk festival in august....again again!
-get inspired, stay inspired, actualize inspiration
-make more art
-take more random mini vacations, love VT and NY foreverr. yes, i count westford MA as a mini vacation.
-get really flexible. i'm doing bikram yoga these days and i'm pretty bendy, but i wanna do some crazy shit by next january!
-go to the UN in february and love every second of it
-better disentangle my thoughts and construct a rational proceeding course of action
-spend a while off facebook. this goal should be a three month stint at a time that it is reasonable for it to occur
-spend more time inside my body and interacting with reality then getting lost in my thought because 1) it's impossible to have a conversation without sounding like an elitist prick 2) it contributes to my over thinking things 3) i am happier
-cook more! make myself and friends five (5) amazing and complex dinners. so sick of pasta and microwave brocollli!!
-just because everything has an allegorical meaning doesn't mean everyone wants to talk about it--goes with knowing the space/size i occupy :)