Sorry about the last post...
Sorry about the last post. I'm just upset that my grandfather died. Thanks to those of you that replied - now I feel like somebody actually does read this thing and cares. I mean, I know people read it. But it's one thing to actually read something, and another thing to actually, I don't know, interact on it. Sometimes I feel like no one really *wants* to reply unless I'm incredibly angry or sad.
And I've been starting to figure out that people who I thought were my friends don't really act like friends, don't really talk to me, and don't really want to hang out with me (even though sometimes they're like *yeah, it'd be great to do something*. I can name three or four who have been like that), while others do. Thanks to those of you who've shown you're really my friends. And sorry for being pissy, I've got a lot on my plate right now.
Oh yeah, and a word to the wise - don't quit your meds right when you move out of your parents' house. It's a really freakin' bad idea. Mood swings are not fun. Neither is randomly feeling dead tired. And dealing with living by yourself either. In retrospect, I should have waited a bit. I still have a lot to learn about keeping friends, and understanding who is really my friend - and who is just someone I know that is nice to me. Any hints about what the f I'm doing wrong, or maybe what the f is wrong with me? I do have a right to be upset at a couple of people who have been like *yeah, we gotta do something* or *yeah, it'd be fun to hang out*, and then never follow through, never really seem to actually want to do something, even though they acted like it? I can't be too angry at them. They got shit to do, they got lives too. I just wish they'd be up front with me about the fact that they don't want to hang out with me, instead of pretending like they do.
And I've been starting to figure out that people who I thought were my friends don't really act like friends, don't really talk to me, and don't really want to hang out with me (even though sometimes they're like *yeah, it'd be great to do something*. I can name three or four who have been like that), while others do. Thanks to those of you who've shown you're really my friends. And sorry for being pissy, I've got a lot on my plate right now.
Oh yeah, and a word to the wise - don't quit your meds right when you move out of your parents' house. It's a really freakin' bad idea. Mood swings are not fun. Neither is randomly feeling dead tired. And dealing with living by yourself either. In retrospect, I should have waited a bit. I still have a lot to learn about keeping friends, and understanding who is really my friend - and who is just someone I know that is nice to me. Any hints about what the f I'm doing wrong, or maybe what the f is wrong with me? I do have a right to be upset at a couple of people who have been like *yeah, we gotta do something* or *yeah, it'd be fun to hang out*, and then never follow through, never really seem to actually want to do something, even though they acted like it? I can't be too angry at them. They got shit to do, they got lives too. I just wish they'd be up front with me about the fact that they don't want to hang out with me, instead of pretending like they do.