Sep 29, 2005 14:15
I can honestly tell you right now, I'm not following my heart along the lines I so loyally traversed in the past. I'm ignoring what my heart wont let up about. I'm following my logic, and I have no shame or regret in doing so, only the popular comfort of self-preservation that all the people I've resented swear to. It feels better this way. Don't knock it till you try it.
I could listen to Tom Petty on the jukebox for hours. (And I just did.) Sometimes it feels like Cody is the only one that understands. Or at least sits with me and hugs around my shoulder blades as we laugh about it all in each others ears. I suppose thats why we are soul mate best friends.
And turn the radio loud, I’m too alone to be proud
You don’t know how it feels
You don’t know how it feels to be me
People come, people go
Some grow young, some grow cold
I woke up in between
A memory and a dream
Or maybe it's not my heart that I'm not following, but something else. Something dangerous. Something I'm glad has faded into obscurity.