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"Do you still believe in fairy tales?"
"No."
"Why not?"
"It hurts too much too believe."
i wish i could map myself out. trace frozen skin and hurt glances and a constant feeling of something being missing so that id never not understand. i want to list everything that makes me cry and the reasons i feel safest in black and the fustration thats tearing me in half. i want to document every thought, every kiss, every regret. everything thats eating me and everyone whos hurt me. i want to feel clean. i want to outline myself and study it and start over. i want to try without it feeling useless.
"No."
"Why not?"
"It hurts too much too believe."
i wish i could map myself out. trace frozen skin and hurt glances and a constant feeling of something being missing so that id never not understand. i want to list everything that makes me cry and the reasons i feel safest in black and the fustration thats tearing me in half. i want to document every thought, every kiss, every regret. everything thats eating me and everyone whos hurt me. i want to feel clean. i want to outline myself and study it and start over. i want to try without it feeling useless.