230
...i've been MIA? sorry, been making a video. ^^;;; it has kind of taken up all of my time.
second point of order: i've been looking for a digital copy of x-men (2nd series) issue #80. i would normally buy it off marvel.com, but i'd feel silly doing that, when all i need is one single panel. so if anyone has a scanned version of it, and would be willing to let me save that one page, i would be grateful forever. ♥♥♥
hey, do elizabeth mitchell & scott wolf's characters hook up in V? i don't know why, but i've had this idea for a long time (like, since she first started as juliet on lost and he was wrapping up everwood) that they would make a hot on-screen couple. lol, do the characters even interact? 'cause, you know, i might watch this show just for that. well, that, and alan tudyk. duh.
in other news, i've updated my list of anime i want to watch:
1. death note.
2. the haruhi suzumiya franchise.
3. code geass.
4. axis powers hetalia. i'm generally not into slash-- and the fandom for this series is understandably full of it-- but that premise is too ridiculously hilarious for me to ignore it. xD
also, i went back to this thing, and decided it was entirely too wangsty. that won't work at all, nope-- they're barely eighteen, hardly right for them to be considering a whole life together. also, i don't want anyone to think kurt's on the rebound or still pining away when he, uh, gets together with... someone, later on in the fic. =P but apparently i have a gift for writing melodramatic break-up scenes. no, really, it's not even on purpose. ^^;;;
so i went ahead and changed it, trying to make it more of a clean break, but not entirely disaffected, because i want it to feel like they still cared for each other even if they weren't exactly the love of each other's lives. please tell me if i achieved that? =3
----------
When she looked back at him, she was biting her lip. He wondered if he should be worried. She didn't leave him wondering for too long, though, as she quickly started to explain. "My dad got me a full scholarship to UC Stanford. A full ride. No requirements," she stated.
She had been very point-blank, but now looked up at him, expectant. He wasn't really sure what he should say. Stanford? That was on the opposite side of the country. Kurt knew this, of course, from Jean. He also knew that Stanford had always been Amanda's #1 choice for college. Once, when she was still in elementary school, her family had visited the University while vacationing in California, and she'd fallen in love with it. It had been her dream to go to Stanford since as long as she could remember.
Kurt, on the other hand, due to his... condition, had to stay close to the Institute, even when in college. He'd already applied and gotten accepted to a smaller University near Bayville (his visa status demanded that he get an early acceptance to ensure everything was in order). They hadn't really talked about what they would do next year-- life had gotten too hectic for Kurt and the X-Men that summer, so they hadn't really spent a lot of time together lately. He knew she'd just sent her applications in, one to Stanford included, just to see if she would get accepted, although she wasn't sure what she would do if she was. Stanford was very expensive. She had mentioned that she was looking for financial aid.
Now, her father had gone out of his way to get her a scholarship. To a university on the opposite side of the country. That could only mean... "I thought your father wasn't bothered by my mutation," he asked, confused, and somewhat dejected.
"He's not," she hurried to interject. "It has nothing to do with you being a mutant. It's just..."
She paused, and Kurt could see her trying to measure her words. "I understand. It's not because I'm a mutant, he just thinks I'm a bad boyfriend in general. Wunderbar," he concluded, his tone bitter. And he had a right to be: after that incident with Todd Tolansky, he'd been nothing but attentive to Amanda's parents, trying to reassure them that he cared very much about their daughter and that despite that initial impression, his life was not a complete disaster. They seemed to genuinely like him, he'd been so proud of himself for regaining their trust. But now this... he didn't know what to think. He'd be lying if he said it didn't sting.
He didn't say any of this out loud, but she flinched anyway. "No, he just... he thinks we're getting too serious, too quickly," she tried to explain, but it came out a bit weak. He knew it was an excuse: in between the whole Apocalypse deal, their SATs and just trying to keep up their GPA on top of all the stress, they had barely gone on three dates in the last three months. He didn't know why she bothered trying to soften the blow, when it was obvious. "He's trying to separate us, I know, and I don't like it, but..."
He let it go, not wanting to upset her. "Alright, if you say so," he quipped, in a neutral tone. He sat down on the bench beside her and let out a chilly breath. "So... you're going to take it, then?" he asked, looking at her from the corner of his eye.
One of her hands rose to her forehead, as if to stave off a heavy headache, and then she turned around, looking straight at him. "I... I think I will," she admitted. Her expression was regretful but certain-- clearly she didn't want to hurt him, but she knew what she wanted to do. "I'm sorry, Kurt. It's just... it's Stanford. Admission guaranteed. No requirements. I'll never get a better offer than that."
He couldn't lie to himself: it hurt. It hurt a lot. They hadn't been dating that long and they hadn't spent as much time together as he would've wanted, but he really liked her and he was happy in this relationship. "So... what about us?" he questioned, tone a bit clipped, but he was fighting the urge to simply BAMF out of there, back to the Institute. "Do we keep on?"
----------
this isn't the whole scene, of course, but i think you can appreciate the overall feel of the scene from this snippet. so, good?