I need to grow up.
The necessary transition from childhood to adulthood is kind of difficult for me. I wouldn't say I'm breaking under pressure. . . There wasn't a hundred hairline cracks that no one took the time to patch up before it got to hard to fix. It'd be selfish of me to say that people don't care and that all I am is a cracking dam ready to burst. For the most part, I do not want to believe that. People love me, as I do them.
Yet, I don't seem to grasp that everyone has their own agendas and that I have to become more independent. No one can be for me all the time, as I would for them. However, who am I fooling? I am no super hero I can't be in two different places at once. The day these revelations hit, is when they actually happen. I will be too busy doing my own thing to realize it. . . That's when you know it has actually happened.
Is there any reason as to why I impose this shit onto others? No? Deep down am I sick fuck that likes others to suffer with me? Is this even suffering? I don't I should call it that. It must not be. I'm sane and mature enough to grasp that much.
Fuck, fuck, fuck.
Yet, I don't seem to grasp that everyone has their own agendas and that I have to become more independent. No one can be for me all the time, as I would for them. However, who am I fooling? I am no super hero I can't be in two different places at once. The day these revelations hit, is when they actually happen. I will be too busy doing my own thing to realize it. . . That's when you know it has actually happened.
Is there any reason as to why I impose this shit onto others? No? Deep down am I sick fuck that likes others to suffer with me? Is this even suffering? I don't I should call it that. It must not be. I'm sane and mature enough to grasp that much.
Fuck, fuck, fuck.