Sad News
Yesterday Sam called Umpa telling him that a friend committed suicide.
Her name was Jane. I think she was in her late 20's. Beautiful girl. She used to do Anna, Molly, my sister, Krystal's nails. She use to go out with the owner of Solid Image. Anyway, yeah, Sam said that police found her hanging from a tree beside her fathers grave. Umpa came by from work to bring me lunch and he told me. The look on my face of shock that I couldn't erase for a couple of minutes. It was like a psychic flashback ran through my head. I could clearly vision her doing what she did and see her. I really wanted to cry. I didn't know her very well but, the fact that it was someone I knew. I never thought I would go through a situation like this for awhile. Ever since I heard the news, I couldn't get the vision out of my head. It was like a broken record. It kept playing and playing. I couldn't think straight. I told my mom how I was feeling and she understood. I wanted to cry on the phone. I guess the reason why I wanted to cry is because life is so precious and it's so short. And I've wasted a lot of years. I can't get them back. Now I'm 21 and my life hasn't went much further than when I was 16. And to hear that news lets me know.... one minor fuck up and you can lose everything. And I've tried to do that. I've tried to take my own life for a stupid reason. It just wasn't my time to go. they didn't want me yet. and I also wonder why did she do it? Did she at least leave a reason behind. What made her go over the edge? Was she on anything? Did someone else do it? Did anyone know about it and didn't believe her? And why didn't she go get help? Just so many questions. How did she get the balls to do what she did? I know that shit would hurt. I don't have the balls to physically hurt myself. I've tried and visions go through my mind of everyone and what happens even after I go. I could never physically do it. Another thing that was fucked up was that I saw her last month on Angel's Birthday. She looked to be okay. But, I know that when people are usually going to do something horrible to themselves, they don't tell anyone. I mean damn, I just saw her. Okay I'me going to stop now. I'm starting to tear up.
RIP Jane.
I hope you're doing better now.
Her name was Jane. I think she was in her late 20's. Beautiful girl. She used to do Anna, Molly, my sister, Krystal's nails. She use to go out with the owner of Solid Image. Anyway, yeah, Sam said that police found her hanging from a tree beside her fathers grave. Umpa came by from work to bring me lunch and he told me. The look on my face of shock that I couldn't erase for a couple of minutes. It was like a psychic flashback ran through my head. I could clearly vision her doing what she did and see her. I really wanted to cry. I didn't know her very well but, the fact that it was someone I knew. I never thought I would go through a situation like this for awhile. Ever since I heard the news, I couldn't get the vision out of my head. It was like a broken record. It kept playing and playing. I couldn't think straight. I told my mom how I was feeling and she understood. I wanted to cry on the phone. I guess the reason why I wanted to cry is because life is so precious and it's so short. And I've wasted a lot of years. I can't get them back. Now I'm 21 and my life hasn't went much further than when I was 16. And to hear that news lets me know.... one minor fuck up and you can lose everything. And I've tried to do that. I've tried to take my own life for a stupid reason. It just wasn't my time to go. they didn't want me yet. and I also wonder why did she do it? Did she at least leave a reason behind. What made her go over the edge? Was she on anything? Did someone else do it? Did anyone know about it and didn't believe her? And why didn't she go get help? Just so many questions. How did she get the balls to do what she did? I know that shit would hurt. I don't have the balls to physically hurt myself. I've tried and visions go through my mind of everyone and what happens even after I go. I could never physically do it. Another thing that was fucked up was that I saw her last month on Angel's Birthday. She looked to be okay. But, I know that when people are usually going to do something horrible to themselves, they don't tell anyone. I mean damn, I just saw her. Okay I'me going to stop now. I'm starting to tear up.
RIP Jane.
I hope you're doing better now.