April 17th 2007
it's everyday/it's the way you lay beside me/inside me/it's the silly faces you make/the way you take me away to another place/when i look at your face/when you rant about things i can't understand and i learn to ask questions that leave impressions of you in my mind/it's a time/you scare me with your intesity and sensibly i can't i agree with you/but i'm intrigued nonetheless/i'd confess to you if i didn't fear the stress that would break what i already have with you/something comfortable/something sweet/something innocent between the sheets/i'm tired of the way this goes on/i'm no better than the one night stand you had/even though i've been in demand with you through out these weeks/and i'm biting through my cheeks trying to decide when to confide in you because i will hate to say goodbye/there's only weeks/just a few measely weeks left
and i won him...and lost him.
how does one move on without meeting some other first? is it possible really? i'm curious because when i think about it...most people i know don't really get over it until they meet someone else; is that unhealthy? well i told him we shouldn't talk for a couple weeks for his sake and mine. i am capable of being his friend but i just need time and i hope now that i know what he thinks and feels (something about equal to..nothing) i can just bite the bullet and move on and live better than i have been and stop having lame rants. *anyway* aside from the poem reminding me of sadness..i still kinda like it.
and i won him...and lost him.
how does one move on without meeting some other first? is it possible really? i'm curious because when i think about it...most people i know don't really get over it until they meet someone else; is that unhealthy? well i told him we shouldn't talk for a couple weeks for his sake and mine. i am capable of being his friend but i just need time and i hope now that i know what he thinks and feels (something about equal to..nothing) i can just bite the bullet and move on and live better than i have been and stop having lame rants. *anyway* aside from the poem reminding me of sadness..i still kinda like it.