My safe space
I forget I have this safe place to say what I want from judging eyes.
As I get older I cant handle judment. I cant cope with peoples eye rolls and comments they think others cant see. Places I once enjoyed now have a horrid atmosphere and I dont want to be in them. I dont want to tolerate other peoples small mindedness and share the same air. Of they are pricks the I dont want to be near them. Being around them only makes me angry and at best I wont show it but I want to. I want to tell people exactly how I feel but I dont because I dont want to cause a scene. I just sit there fuming inside.
No good will come of me sitting there fuming silently.
So to all the people who I tolerate for the sake of causing a scene I fucking hate you.
I hate how you sit there not so perfect yourself (infact since everyone is so judmental I may as well join in). Your not perfect Alexandra. You sit there in the pub judging people in a pub for drinking. If you dont like drunk people then get the fuck out of the pub. Twat.
You think I dont see you judging my Sir when he is drunk (in a pub...the horror). You think I dont see you whispering to your friend about him.
I see all your bullshit posts about having anxiety yet I dont see people judging you.
Perhaps thats why your so anxious. Perhaps it is because you think everyone will be sottong around whispering about you because thats exactly what you do.
Sir was oblivious and a bit drunk (in a pub fuck the shame). He didnt see how you were obviously ripping him apart.Even after I told him he didnt give a crap. This is because he has it right. You dont matter in our lives so why would he care.
So why do I care?
I dont know. You dont matter to me Sir is right but it just doesnt sit right that someone who isnt so perfect themselves and who admits to find it hard being around people sits there and judges.
Your spiritually sick. Get some help. Maybe if you didnt sit there and be vile about other people you would realise not everyone does that. Because they dont. So next time I see this disgusting behaviour I may have to call you out on it. Then I will be the bad guy because your just sitting there. But I know. Ive watched and I know.
For shame.
As I get older I cant handle judment. I cant cope with peoples eye rolls and comments they think others cant see. Places I once enjoyed now have a horrid atmosphere and I dont want to be in them. I dont want to tolerate other peoples small mindedness and share the same air. Of they are pricks the I dont want to be near them. Being around them only makes me angry and at best I wont show it but I want to. I want to tell people exactly how I feel but I dont because I dont want to cause a scene. I just sit there fuming inside.
No good will come of me sitting there fuming silently.
So to all the people who I tolerate for the sake of causing a scene I fucking hate you.
I hate how you sit there not so perfect yourself (infact since everyone is so judmental I may as well join in). Your not perfect Alexandra. You sit there in the pub judging people in a pub for drinking. If you dont like drunk people then get the fuck out of the pub. Twat.
You think I dont see you judging my Sir when he is drunk (in a pub...the horror). You think I dont see you whispering to your friend about him.
I see all your bullshit posts about having anxiety yet I dont see people judging you.
Perhaps thats why your so anxious. Perhaps it is because you think everyone will be sottong around whispering about you because thats exactly what you do.
Sir was oblivious and a bit drunk (in a pub fuck the shame). He didnt see how you were obviously ripping him apart.Even after I told him he didnt give a crap. This is because he has it right. You dont matter in our lives so why would he care.
So why do I care?
I dont know. You dont matter to me Sir is right but it just doesnt sit right that someone who isnt so perfect themselves and who admits to find it hard being around people sits there and judges.
Your spiritually sick. Get some help. Maybe if you didnt sit there and be vile about other people you would realise not everyone does that. Because they dont. So next time I see this disgusting behaviour I may have to call you out on it. Then I will be the bad guy because your just sitting there. But I know. Ive watched and I know.
For shame.