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[girlieso_groovy]

my dad is watching royal tenenbaums
downstairs. i was there, mostly taking in
the soundtrack of bob dylan and elliott
smith but my head was spinning
a little bit and my mind was mushing things together.
i thought leaving drunken myspace comments
would be fun; too bad i'm fully articulate.
my parents let me drink as much merlot
as i want because next year, i'll be
going to columbia university.
and shit, i'll admit it. so
do it. i've never admitted to being proud
of myself, being smart, being
talented or any of that stuff so since everyone
else was saying it i was like
"fuck it. i'm awesome."
it's a big school, columbia.
it's ivy league, you know. it's
fucking hard. i'll have to study and
try. i forgot
what it's like to try.
it's a big city, new york.
it's across the country, you know. it's
fucking cold. i'll have to wear a coat and
deal with it. i can't wait to
deal with it. i'm
so awesome.
and drunk.