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[girliegirl_224]

I don't know why but today is a hard day for me. I have good days & bad days, today is just a bad one. Usually if I go & run for a while I feel better, get out the aggression, but I just got back from the gym & I don't feel much better. I had a dream last night that I saw them together, all happy. It hurts that he's happy after everything. I don't

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It is hard

[anonymous]

Hi, I don't usually place comments but I have read your situation. I can relate to you. Three years ago I went through a similiar situation with a girl I was seeing while I was in school. She was everything I thought my heart and soul wanted and needed. She moved away to school in NYC and I found a way to follow and I continued school up there. Where I knew I was completely faithful to her, I started seeing signs that she wasn't but I didn't believe it afterall love is blind as they say, but we had building conflict. When we returned to Cruces, it built up more. Then one day she called me from NYC again to tell me she was with another guy that gave her more than I could. Yeah it broke me too. It was like something inside my chest just imploded and left a deep dark hole. Everyday was a difficult and I felt just like how you describe your days. Then one day she sent me photos of her and her new friend and that that really messed me up. It's an ugly horrible feeling. I know that I actually got physically sick. But I had my friends. They helped me. They listened to me and they helped me out.
AS ugly as it sounds this situation that you are going through and what I went through and as I found out during that time one of my friends went through, it is just part of life. It's as a Psychiatrist from the US Public Health Service told me once to be a life defining moment. These situations can either make us or break us. I decided to take it as a learning situation. I was just graduating from NMSU at the time and I decided to look at it as a test of my character. This last test didn't focus on my skills, my knowledge, or anything academic. It was a test of my character. I came out of it ok, so will you. I am sorry that it happened to you because I know its an ugly feeling. I can't imagine there is going to anything else in life as ugly as that. All you need is time and you will find out that you will be better off than him.
In my case, my ex got dropped for the same reason she dropped me. Now she has no job and is alone. I have my degree, a job, nice life and I am working on a second degree.
It's all about hope. You still have it. It is a little thing but it is very strong. You will emerge from this well. Its like walking up a mountain side. You can always see the peak until you are at the bottom of a small hill. Just because you have a bit of a steeper climb and you can't see the top of the mountain doesn't mean that it's not there anymore. You can do it.
I know this has been a little sappy and I am sure you have been told this all before. But a little more can't hurt you.
Be Safe

Daniel