its a cold cold mountain
so.
finally came back to the mountain.
had a good talk with matt the genius. love him. great tos ee my mommy duck. great to play with the kids.
however. it seems i'm still the awkward one, in between mentor and pal. even though by now im suppose to be a pal mentor and am just doing the jobs they asked me to.
puts me alone in the lodge.
it use to be the mountain that made me happy to be me.
but these days it makes me feel all the more unwanted. and like crying in the ice.
at least i know im really here for the kids.
they want me to come this summer. but as of right now, im relatively sure i would be miserable.
funny how the turn around is.
i'm tired of being a spare tire. correction. im tired of letting myeslf be a spare tire.
i'll keep coming to cons for the kids.
but it no longer does anything for me emotionally.
i miss my long lost friends.
a lot.
finally came back to the mountain.
had a good talk with matt the genius. love him. great tos ee my mommy duck. great to play with the kids.
however. it seems i'm still the awkward one, in between mentor and pal. even though by now im suppose to be a pal mentor and am just doing the jobs they asked me to.
puts me alone in the lodge.
it use to be the mountain that made me happy to be me.
but these days it makes me feel all the more unwanted. and like crying in the ice.
at least i know im really here for the kids.
they want me to come this summer. but as of right now, im relatively sure i would be miserable.
funny how the turn around is.
i'm tired of being a spare tire. correction. im tired of letting myeslf be a spare tire.
i'll keep coming to cons for the kids.
but it no longer does anything for me emotionally.
i miss my long lost friends.
a lot.